The wanderer returns (temporarily)!! I promise i haven't been lurking on here and not posting.
Fantastic news for both of you Bubbs and Lily! Ninja you are quite right that it only takes one, so thinking of you wed. That is what i am telling myself. Try not to worry hun. I bet you have some juicy lovely eggs there.
The truth is, this is the first day i have felt strong enough to come back on here. I decided along with my family that being on here wasn't actually helping me for a while. I was getting freaked out by how many eggs people where getting knowing i wouldn't get many. So sorry i am not here for you guys at the moment.
Today i have turned a corner
. I am telling myself i am pregnant until proven otherwise and this is really helping. It sounds a cliche but i really have felt like i have been on a rollercoster. I was very calm for EC and was very relived to get 7 eggs (they always warned me i wouldn't get more than this). The next day i felt every emotion under the sun. When that phone call came to say 'There is good and bad news ' over the phone my heart was pounding. The good news was 2 fertilised but the other 5 didn't prob down to poor egg quality issue. Luckily my DH was there as i went into panic mode. God, a little knowledge is dangerous for me!
ET was Friday as with 2 remaining they had to go home ASAP. News was a shock on Friday sitting in theatre when they told me one didn't progress so i had 1 day 2, 4 cell grade 2 to return. I cried tears of joy that i still had one but also disappointment that i was already down to 1 embryo at this early stage. I did not expect a quality issue at age 33 so it was a real shock.
I have felt exhausted emotionally and physically and finally feel better today. I have been putting all my energy into resting, relaxing and praying that this little one makes it. It's been hard to keep calm. The embryologist still said my chances are 40% so i am really pleased with that. Please be strong for me little embie. You are sooooo wanted.
Wishing you all mega luck in every stage of the process. I'm going to make some comfort food next (apple crumble and soup) then laugh with some stand up comedy