Thank you all so much for your kind words. I am so sure I have now made the right decision. At first I was very undecided cause of the questions in the back of my head "what if" etc but after thinking about it all have decided its the right way to go at the moment.
My hospital were really lovely about it all. They said I should take the time to think over things, and when I am ready, just to call them and they will fix me up with some dates.
I really can't thank you enough for all the support you have ALL given me over the last few months.
I wont be going anywhere, will still be posting updates on my counselling etc.
Lots of love to you all