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Offline looby1005

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« Reply #550 on: 19/04/17, 15:42 »
What an afternoon, it's all over for me, held it together so well until the nurse went through the next steps, then I broke down, didn't realise there were so many options, think I'm going to give myself a week and see what happens, feel like I've been poked and prodded enough for now. Just feel numb

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    Offline Micg15

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    « Reply #551 on: 19/04/17, 17:36 »
    Ah looby I'm so so sorry to hear that I was really hoping that there would be a little miracle today. You're bound to feel numb and then a whole mixture of other emotions right now, please be kind to yourself and do whatever you need to do to make yourself feel better. take as much time as you need you've been through an ordeal and need to do what's best for you.
    Sending you lots of hugs and love xxxx

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    « Reply #552 on: 19/04/17, 17:57 »
    I'm going to have a nice gin and tonic tonight, not feeling too bad now, just seems to come and go. Didn't help today that I had to text my friend to congratulate her on the birth of her little girl, that killed me but had to message her. Just wish it was me, that makes me sounds such a horrible person.

    Appolonia - im so sorry you are having to make this horrible decision, hope you are doing ok(or the best you can), take care xx

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    « Reply #553 on: 21/04/17, 11:34 »
    Hi,

    Oh Looby, Iím so sorry. I was hoping there would be good news.
    Itís such a loss. Youíre right Ė take time out from hospitals and scans etc, before you decide what the next steps are. This wasnít your time unfortunately, but hopefully with your 5 frosties, your time will come. Wishing you all the strength to get through this. Come here any time you want to talk about it.

    I know what you mean about holding it together. When I had my CVS I was calm, and then at the end the nurse gently handed me a form with the names of counselors on it, and everything just went black Ė I fainted. I think the mention of counselors brought home just how serious this all is.

    Micg, sorry to hear you are nauseous, but hopefully youíve only another couple of weeks to get through to 12 weeks, when the symptoms should go. Best of luck with your scan tomorrow.

    Finally, I made the decision to go for the TFMR. Flying to UK this afternoon. I feel so guilty about what Iím going to do to the poor baby tomorrow, but there isnít much choice. I just keep telling myself that it's not the end of the road - I have hope and options, and hopefully next time will go better.
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    « Reply #554 on: 21/04/17, 12:47 »
    Thank you appolonia, it's so hard not to think about the what ifs. but I'm glad we've got options just terrified it will all go wrong again.

    So sorry to hear what you are going through, don't feel guilty, you are doing what is best for you and the baby, and I would do the same. I really hope it goes ok today and you can think ahead soon. Take care of yourself and we are hear if you need us, we will get there xxx

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    « Reply #555 on: 21/04/17, 17:45 »
    Hi

    Appolonia hope you're ok, please try not to feel bad as looby said I would do the same too and as awful as the situation is you're doing the best thing that you can do in a rubbish situation. I'm glad that you have options and hope once you have some time to process everything can try again and it will be your time. Will be thinking of you tomorrow and please come and chat here when you feel that you need to, sending lots of love xxx

    Looby hope you're doing ok Hun, again I'm so sorry for what you're going through and completely agree you've had enough prodding lately just take some time and see how you feel. Again it's great that you have some in the freezer and can try again chances are that the egg had chromosomal abnormalities and others will be ok, I think they say there's always a good one in every batch!! Once you process everything and give yourself some time I'm praying that it works out for you next time and all is ok. xxx

    Sending you both lots of love
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    « Reply #556 on: 22/04/17, 09:35 »
    Morning,
    Be thinking of you today appolonia xxx

    I started with cramps yesterday and bleeding last night, woke up with cramps this morning too but painkillers have helped to ease it off. Just hoping it passes quickly, just feels like it's really over now 😪, I think this is so hard because I've been preparing since December for it, but keep thinking of my 5 frosties all waiting. my husband kept asking if I was OK last night, he was worried because I must have looked so sad, but I know I'll get there, just going to think of me and avoid anything /one who will upset me.

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    « Reply #557 on: 22/04/17, 10:31 »
    Hey

    Appolonia thoughts are with you today Hun hope you're ok please look after yourself and we are here if u need a chat xxx

    Looby I'm really sorry you're going through this, did you stop the meds? I suppose in one way it's good your body is reacting naturally and you don't have to go through anymore procedures but that doesn't make it any easier. Think that's a good plan just do what's right for you and rest loads, focusing on your 5 ice babies is good and your time will come. I'm glad your oh is looking after you. Here if you need a chat take care of yourself xx

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    « Reply #558 on: 22/04/17, 10:44 »
    Hi Micg, yes stopped my meds on Wednesday so it's not taken to long to start which I suppose is good. I'm hoping it all goes ok naturally and I don't need to go through anything else.

    Hope you are doing ok, sorry not even asked, hope your sickness has passed, you must be getting so excited xx

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    « Reply #559 on: 24/04/17, 10:10 »
    Hi,

    Looby, I hope youíre not in too much pain with the cramps. Thatís good itís happening naturally, without needing more intervention. Are you off work this week?
    Youíre rightĖ think of yourself first and stay away from people or situations that are upsetting.
    Iíve been googling loads, and nearly everyone who has a miscarriage goes on to have a healthy baby a year later.

    I had the procedure on Sat. It was ok. All the people in the hospital were so nice. I got treated extra-specially since it was for medical reasons Ė they put me in a separate quiet waiting room, and I was allowed have an escort with me the whole time. They just put me to sleep, and when I woke up the baby was gone. So sad. Itís like the last 3 months of being pregnant were a dream. Iím trying to not dwell on it, but keep bursting into tears.
    Only 1 or 2 friends know about it, so itís awful having to act normal when other friends are asking how my weekend was etc, and suggesting going out, when I just want to avoid the world.

    Micg Ė how was your scan on Sat? Iím sure it was exciting to see the growth.
    xx