Morning all!
Sharing the general stress vibe..still not sleeping well which doesn't help. A week and one day to go to my official due date! On the one hand i am so happy and excited - there have been so many points in the last few years when I didn't think I would ever get this far, and I feel so blessed to be sitting here typing this - I remember being in my first trimester on this board (more than once) and finding it to hard to imagine that I would ever be one of the ones actually having a baby. I hope it gives you first trimester girls hope!
On the other hand I am still so afraid of things going wrong. So much has gone wrong in the past, and in my case a different problem every time - that's what it looks like and that's what the dr's tell me - which is supposed to be comforting and it is in some ways (no reason to think any particular problem will recur) but it also leaves the fear - what NEW thing is going to go wrong now?
But I am trying to focus on the positive.
Chanced are the baby will be fine, and I will soon be holding him/her in my arms. What a miracle.
Anyway, those are my rather scattered friday morning thoughts!
Maarias - hope you get your cot and changer! I feel like we have been spending money like water lately...it is so hard not to think - 'i want to absolute the best for this baby and the cost doesn't matter' - of course cost matters a bit! And lots of the things you can end being sucked into don't matter at all. Mind you, dh is worse then me. he just found the NCT shop and has spent about £100 there...
Julia - great to hear about dh's cheesy grin!
Suze - sorry to hear about ongoing blood pressure issues. Hope you get your induction date today. In the meantime no harm in lots of
- it would be even better if you can get the baby to arrive on its own! (I know the evidence that sex actually helps i scant, but it makes some sense, and worth a try!).
Maarias, CG and Strawbs - I'm jealous of your big bumps - I have only put on a stone and a half total, and my bump is very modest. I keep plaguing the midwife about whether the baby is big enough, and though she admits it is not a big baby, she says it is big enough. I am trying to believe her!
Maarias - hope your swelling and so on isn't too uncomfortable - glad to hear htye don't think it is pre-eclampsia.
Strawbs - situation with chest of drawers sounds very stressful! I can sympathise. My dh decided to redecorate our entire flat, but he has been so slow - just finished yesterday!! I can't count the number of times I have sd. "the baby could come at any minute!'.
CG - I hear you on the MIL front. My MIL cries all the time - I am dreading her visit. I feel that getting all upset so easily is basically a manipulative strategy to get the attention back on to her. She has no grandchildren, (this will be her first) and I really feel that her main emotional reaction to the situation is that she will no longer be the person in the family most in need of looking after!
When she gets all upset I feel like screaming at her, 'ITS NOT ALL ABOUT YOU!!!!!'. One thing that has really helped is talking to dh about it - and over the years he has really come to undertsand what his mum does wrong - he was (willfully to some extent) blind to it before. But gradually has has come to see her in a diferent light, and although tht has been quite painful for him I thin it has made it possible for me to be in the same room as her...I totally admire your instinct to keep him out of the middle of the situation, but maybe in the long term its better to be in it togther...
Hpe you all have a great weekend. Hugs to everyone else -
Jola