Again I'm wide awake in the early hours, not really knowing what to think.
I don't feel pregnant at all. The only signs are the more frequent trips to the loo & period pains every now & then.
I look bloated but I'm not sure if that's due to all the comfort food I'm eating?
If I'm craving anything it's red wine. 🍷 I'd love to
Open a bottle & get tipsy woo to relax a bit.
I'm now worried that this mc means that DH & I just aren't compatible.
Maybe genetically we don't go together. That obviously breaks my heart.
He, even more so now, thanks we don't ever need ivf again. Look we can now get pg natrually. So let's keep going?
Well that's great if I don't keep miscarrying! I don't want to keep getting pg with twisted embryos that aren't going to make it?
Maybe we need to do PGD?
There is still a question whether my body just hates all those drugs?
That's why I want to let nature take it's course with this one. If it's meant to be it will. Let's just see what happens on its own?
I've been ivf/drug free for a year now & have had 2 natural bfps!
I'm not sure what Penny will say on Saturday if I see her. But I haven't bothered emailing her & telling her my woes. I know she'll just shout at me & tell me to think positive. I guess I just watch this space.
I took my trigger shot yesterday but haven't continued the progesterone support. I'm waiting until Saturdays results.
I'll pop some cyclogest in my case but if I'm going to miscarry I want to as soon as possible & not delay it because I'm high on progesterone.
Wow what a roller coaster eh? And there was little old me looking forward to seeing my DH & getting jiggy for 2 weeks in the sun!
Now as soon as I land on Saturday we've been summons to the clinic for bloods instead!

When will I get my break?