ICSI 1, BFN with 1 frostie. ICSI 2, BFN. FET, BFN. ICSI 3 - BFP! Twins!

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9dp5dt

Our OTD isn’t until 13dp9dt, it’s killing me to wait! 4 more days to go...

Woken because of cramp again, don’t know what’s going on down there at the moment. I want to ring the clinic but I don’t want to sound crazy. What do I say?

It’s my husbands grandmothers funeral today so it’s going to be an emotional day. My husband actually said that he didn’t think I should go because I’m supposed to stay calm and it’ll upset me. Honestly. It’s his version of trying to protect me, but it peed me off more that after 10 years of knowing and loving his grandmother that he would think I wouldn’t go to her funeral.

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10dp5dt

Now is the tempting time to test, because I know most women have cracked by now and the hormone levels will be high enough to detect by now. But no, OTD is OTD for a reason and I’m sticking to it. 3 more days to go.

I wasn’t as bad yesterday, maybe because I was distracted all day. Woken up again though because I’m boiling hot and crampy.

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11dp5dt

OTD is 13dp5dt, but decided to test on the evening of 12dp5dt. I don’t want to test and then have to go spend 9 hours in work, this way, no matter what the result, we’ve got an evening to digest everything together.

I am so, so nervous, because this time I really believe I’m pregnant. I’m terrified to test and that not be true. Other cycles I’ve always thought it could go either way, but this time I just feel pregnant.

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12dp5dt

Tomorrow is OTD but I’m going to test after work today. I bought some First Response Early Detection tests, so I’ve got those as well as the clinic tests. Not quite sure how I’m going to get through the day!

I know you are supposed to use your first morning urine, but I think that’s just because it’s the most concentrated. I’m going to try not to pee after 1pm today, then I’ll test around 7pm.

I woke up at around 3am with the most excruciating stomach pains, I’m hoping it’s just bad gas and nothing more sinister.

Please, please still be there embryos. Please!

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BFP!!!!!

I have no idea what to do with myself. It’s taken me 31 years to see a positive pregnancy test. I’m an expert in infertility... I’ve got no idea what do do now!

WOOOOOOOOOOOO!

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4 weeks and 4 days pregnant

I’m still in shock, still can’t believe that I’ve finally got a BFP. There were times I thought we’d never get this far. I know I’m supposed to think realistically and know that just because we are pregnant doesn’t guarantee that we’ll have a baby - but seriously, f*$k that attitude. I am over the moon, and I’m going to enjoy every minute of being pregnant, for however long that lasts.

I’m waiting for the clinic to open so I can ring them and tell them and find out what’s next.

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4w5d

I’m still in this BFP bubble, it’s amazing. I know it’s weird but I feel different. I feel calmer and more settled. I know that sounds odd, but it’s the way I feel!

My scan with my clinic isn’t for ages - 14th May! That’s 4 days short of a month to wait. 😳 Never mind, it’s taken us over six years to get a BFP - I can manage another 3.5 week wait for a scan!

My clinic don’t offer blood tests, I don’t mind to be honest. There’s nothing I can do, and if Beta numbers don’t rise it’s just going to stress me out over a situation I can’t control. At least this way when we scan there’ll be things to see. By then, all being well, we should see a heartbeat and know if it’s a multiple or not.

I’m going abroad next week for 3 days with work. There’s 15 of us going all from the same team so it’s going to get messy. I’m going to develop a sudden kidney infection to get away with not drinking and potentially going back to the hotel a bit earlier in the nights.

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I love being able to say that I'm 5 weeks pregnant.

All good, hubby has gone back home so I'm on my own for 3 weeks finishing some work. We've been together for 3.5 weeks constantly, so I think we are both happy to have some space! He's been so adorable throughout this whole thing, I know what a good 'un I have, but recently it's been emphasised even more.

Weather is gorgeous at the moment, it's lovely but I'm nervous about overheating! Drank so much water yesterday that I spent half the night on the loo 

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5+2

3 weeks until my first scan, how am I supposed to wait that long? It feels like forever!

I feel absolutely exhausted today, not sure if that’s an early pregnancy system or just general tiredness - but I’m leaving work today, getting into bed and not getting out again until morning.

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6 weeks pregnant

Still over 2 weeks to wait for a scan - it feels like forever. I keep telling myself that nothing will change from having an earlier scan, but I am so nervous.

Praying that my baby/babies are safe, healthy and snuggled in tight.

I’m definitely having symptoms now. Still getting period type pains, sore boobs & lower back pain. Can now add in a crazy sense of smell, tiredness and feeling thirsty all the time. I don’t mind the symptoms at all, they make me feel happy that something is going on in there.