Hi lovely ones..
Thanks for all your good luck wishes and positive vibes
Transfer went well. I had a magnesium iv which relaxed me so transfer was easy. Our little embie was placed lower than previous cycles.. just something I asked for as researched if placed too high can cause ectopic. Clutching at straws but worth a shot..
We're kind of feeling neutral (more so me than Mr Essie as he keeps referring to 'squidge' and stroking my tummy).. I can't say I'm feeling positive but I'm not negative either and trying to just go about life as normal for these two weeks. As much as one can when injecting twice a day
We had such a good time in Prague and whatever happens we'll always have fond memories that beautiful city.
Fififi, you're story is encouraging! Heck you must have had some real doubts.. you look to your consultant with hope, it's a bitter pill to swallow when they don't have faith in a cycle. It has been discussed with us that if this one fails we get a next cycle free... if that's what we want.
Cheesy, I'm not as despondent as I was... something happens to you straight after a transfer I think, a protective feeling, regardless how fearful you are of the outcome. I've put every ounce of my heart and soul into previous cycles... I feel relaxed this time... that will probably change as OTD draws near, but I won't be psychoanalysing every twinge or the lack of. Don't tie yourself up in knots crossing everything
Louise, Team Essie haha I like it!! I'm taking it easy today, although lots of washing to get through. My niece is 1 yr old tomorrow and her christening is Sunday so have a couple of busy days then work Monday. Not relishing christening.. word's got round family we've been to Prague again, we've never really discuss IF with them as we're private that way but I can hear the whispers now, watching for a reaction at the christening. They'll be disappointed. At least I'll be able to come away if it does get too much as I'll have meds to take.
Karhog thank you
Hey Sassy, we had a lovely last night thank you, a nice meal then a drink (non alcoholic for me) in the old town square, a lovely restaurant across from the Astronomical Clock, sat outside next to a heater with a blanket over my knee
Twinkle Toes my orange knickers are now 3 sizes too big having lost the pounds since first buying them a few years back.. I'll have to roll them up and wear them as a scarf instead
Bundles, not sure where Positive Polly has gone, but Equable Essie is hanging in there
I drank so much water for transfer I feel my bladder is just topping up even now.. I only need a glass and I'm bursting 'to go'. I only drink water and herbal tea (peppermint) anyway, I'm not a big coffee or tea drinker.
Thank you Clara Rose
Lovely Emma, you say the nicest things
I was feeling quite anxious and despondent before but as I've said above now I know our embie is onboard the mothership I feel a calmness.. it'll work or it won't kind of attitude.. it's out of my control now, the universe already knows our fate (or destiny) no amount of worrying will change that. And if it's not meant to be.. well we've recovered before..
Tealight thank you for jumping on and for your support..we've had so many strong and healthy embies along the way but I know what you mean, we do have the best chance. I do feel sad that my body seems to reject them and as dr once said there's something between heaven and earth that no one can control.. it's up to the Gods, and if it's not meant to be then I have to believe there is something else in store for me, may be not what I dreamed of but something I can feel content and happy with..
You've all been amazing.. I feel so honoured that I have so much support on here, it's truly overwhelming..okay now I'm getting teary....
So much love to you all!! 😘😘😘
Essie xx
