Thank you all for your positivity and good luck wishes..
RED so lovely to hear from you, I can't remember how many times you've been there to cheer me on over the years but it's been appreciated each and every time! Hope all is well with you..
Fififi, your past experience sounds very much like ours.. it is so hard to walk away when you've been trying for so long, to stop without a final final go would leave us with a "what if" and a 'what was it all for" question mark hanging over us. Both me and Mr Essie have been to-ing and fro-ing for so long now one of the scariest parts has been admitting to each other that perhaps we had come to the end of the line, it was just neither wanted to be the first to say it out loud. There have been lots of tears along the way but now the cycle is here I, in particular, am keeping my emotions at bay because I just need to get through it, stay neutral. I'm so pleased your final final go was successful after such an emotional time.. and a 2 day embie too! They obviously had the determination and stamina as their mummy
Debs, that's lovely that you meet up with fellow FF'er.. we have something in common on FF that even our closet friends, through no fault of their own, can understand. I hope your FF gets her happy ending too.. no one should have to go through so much to achieve it.
Big thank you to
Sassy and
Karhog too

Mr Essie and I have been focusing on things to do and places to go in Prague rather than treatment itself. We're going to book a night River cruise on a jazz boat, visit Prague castle and petrin hill where they have a mini Eiffel Tower. We've been to Prague a few times now but it's always been about the treatment and not done as much sightseeing as we could have. I'm feeling relatively calm today...
Xx