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Offline Bubbles12

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Dear Diary

The diet is well and truly stuffed. I lost another 3lbs this week totalling 9lbs and for the last 4 days, all ive done is eat. In all fairness, its half term and OH is off as well,  so we have enjoyed doing nothing and everything together. We have been to a waterpark and Cadbury World. So we have all enjoyed it.
But back on it tomorrow.

We live in a lovely little 2 bed semi, we moved in as soon as it was built. We love it here. However, despite our family not expanding (yet) we have outgrown this house.
Our neighbours are not desirable either. Nice people but horrendously inconsiderate. We had problems with them in the back end of 2018 but then they had a baby and things quieted down, and still have. However, they love a party and i know its still still in them to do it again. I live on edge (slightly dramatic) wondering when the next one will be.
So, we seen a house today and are viewing it tomorrow, plus we are the first to view it so i hope it is accepted on a first come first serve basis.
And its detached!
However, if we are accepted  it means we will be moving smack bang in my FET. I have to give 4 weeks notice, so i guess by then, i would have had transfer, and probably would have know the result by then.

The house is too good of an opportunity to miss.

What will be will be i guess.

As for this cycle, i presume things are progressing. I hate this TMI but i often look back at my diary to compare cycles so its handy for me to jot down exactly what happens. By the 2nd Progynova tablet, my EWCM had started. Ive googled this and its normal and Progynova is Estrogen which causes CM.

I have a scan on Monday so we will see.
My mummy is very poorly at the moment, ongoing chest infection along with vomiting (she has lost a stone in weight in a month). Its looking like it could be pneumonia but will know more on friday. She looks awful. She looks pale, skinny and old.

In pure bubbles style, never a dull moment eh!   

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    Offline Bubbles12

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    Dear Diary

    Lining scan tomorrow afternoon, fingers crossed its thickened up enough for them to give me a transfer date.
    So, my mum seems to be a little better thank god, although the doctor still wants to rush through a CT Scan to rule out anything more serious. I doubt it is, but in the back of my mind, im still worried.

    As for the house - we went to view the house, but it was disgusting. They had ferrets... in a bedroom! Yuk! The house stunk! So it was a total no from us!
    But, we then went to see another house.. alot bigger than ours (id say double the size) and we fell in love with it. So we applied for it and have been advised to hand our notice in the house we are but will know for definite tomorrow/Tuesday.
    Its a bit of a weird choice considering we are saving to buy and this house is dearer, but should i get pregnant, i dont want to be worrying about moving house when im pregnant or on maternity.
    The only thing is, we will be moving whilst im in my 2ww... 😬. Its not ideal timing but it will be in the back end of the 2ww and it could actually help me take my mind off it all. I can pack and unpack still, just no heavy lifting. I think it could be a good thing its happening when it is...

    Anyway, i will update tomorrow after my scan.

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    Dear Diary

    Scan went well 😊

    Lining is 10.7mm so transfer is booked for Wednesday 4th.
    Im to sniff the last of the Buserelin at 4pm friday, then start the pessaries that night too.

    This cycle has been so relaxed, 3 appointments including transfer. Lets hope im just as relaxed in the 2ww!

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    Dear Diary

    Both me and DS have been poorly. DS has an ear infection, cough, cold and impetigo 😫. Poor little man. 2 days off school.
    Ive just got a sore throat, my voice keeps going.

    In all fairness, this is the first absence DS has had since September. He hasnt been eating or playing and has at times had a temp of 39.5. 😔 He seems to be on the mend.

    Still waiting for the go ahead to move. Waiting on OH work references. Hopefully by Mon/Tue, we should know. Nevertheless, we have started packing.
    With transfer on Wednesday, i need to make sure i can do as much as i can. I cant be lifting ought heavy.

    So, im having a cheeky gin tonight, it will be my last for a few weeks and hopefully for a while longer than that too!

    Finally ive parted ways with that nasty old nasal spray, hopefully i will regain my patience soon!

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    Dear Diary

    Transfer is tomorrow 😬

    I have the dreaded worries, worries of if the embryo's dont survive the thaw... or that my lining is now too thin... or too thick 😬

    This is so different to all my other cycles. What feels the strangest is that im going in for a transfer tomorrow and im not bloated, nor in pain. All my other transfers are fresh, and i always feel rotten after egg collection. So it almost doesnt feel real. I feel normal!

    OH is poorly, meaning he cant come with me tomorrow, its best he stays in bed, and rests. Ive never done transfer on my own before. Im a little anxious about it.

    DS is still not 100%, i feel so bad for him. Fingers crossed he back to his normal self soon.

    I intend on vegging out on the sofa all day Thursday in hope that the frozen human gets snuggly!

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    Dear Diary

    Still waiting on the call from the clinic 😬 Im starting to think no news is bad news. Perhaps they are delayed because the 1st embryo didnt survive the thaw, so are now thawing another out... or perhaps they have forgot about me....

    Ah, im so impatient! My stomach is in knots!

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    Dear Diary



    Im PUPO... 😁

    So i eventually got the call around half an hour after i last posted.
    She told me not to worry, the embryo thawed beautifully and could i get there as soon as possible.

    I arrived a little over an hour later. I was the only 1 on the ward  and with OH not there, it felt even more empty.
    So the embryologist came to see me. She said that it has 90% cells, which is good apparently. She told me they wont transfer anything less than 50% so that was good to hear.
    She also said it has already started to expand too...  i had no idea what that meant but she again said its really positive.
    The doctor was one ive seen many of times, he was one that not only made the decision to induce me with DS but also 6 years before that with my sister and her triplets. He is a real nice guy. He was measuring alot on ultrasound. My lining was still around 10.7mm.

    So, my OTD is Monday 16th, she told me that my actual test day is Sunday 15th but they are closed so they moved it to the 16th.

    Im currently at home  having just eaten a Macdonalds!

    Now for the dreaded 2ww 😬🤞

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    Dear Diary

    1dp5dt (fet)

    Its been a pretty chilled day. Watched a bit of TV this morning, then went for a nap. A friend came over for coffee and cake.
    DS is starting to feel better i think. Thank god. I wish i  could say the same for my mum. She doesnt seem to be getting any better. She has no energy, keeps vomiting and is breathless again. This has been going on for over a month now. Im thinking the worst. Im taking her to the respiratory clinic tomorrow, the specialise in the chest area and used to fast track cancer diagnosis... even though the GP has said they are not suggesting its cancer. I really hope we will know more tomorrow.

    Ive been cramping a bit today, not loads but some. Ive had 2 episodes of a bad tummy so not sure if the cramps are down to them. Ive decided to up my cyclogest to 3 a day rather than 2, i just have a feeling that my levels are low (not that i cant i tell 🤔) but its not going to do any harm.

    My 'not testing early' is wavering, although im still going to try and not test. We move a week tomorrow so u suppose it would benefit us knowing if im pregnant or not, if im not, i could be more involved ie, moving boxes etc... but im still not going to test. I just worry so much about finding out its a BFN by a period. Id rather test and be prepared, than go to the loo and unexpectedly find out.

    I think im coming down with a cold too, i really could do without it with this and the move.

    Only 11 more sleeps to go 😫


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    Dear Diary

    3dp5dt (FET)

    I may of mentioned that my mum has been poorly. A 'chest infection' that has knocked her sideways. She had an xray and they saw a shadow on her lung but said it was the infection.
    They referred her to the respiratory clinic and made it clear it was to rule anything out and that they still thought it was all down to a chest infection..... they lied.
    We went for the app yesterday and the GP has referred her as they suggest its cancer, because of her xray and other symptoms she has (there are many).
    The consultant by no means said it was cancer, but they are rushing through a CT scan and have indicated that if this is cancer, she hasnt had it for long (the fact that he even said that suggests to me he thinks she has it)
    She is so poorly, its scary to see how poorly she is.
    I feel so upset.
    This cycle is probably doomed too, just to add salt to the wounds 😔😔😔
    Symptom wise, not alot, yesterday i had the odd twinge here and there, and super tired. Today, i have a pulling sensation, almost like im just about to come on. All of these are all the cyclogest im guessing. Still welcomed either way because weirdly, it makes me feel a little more positive, as i know my progesterone levels are ok (im not insinuation i am pregnant, just that my progesterone levels are at a level that could sustain a pregnancy if that makes sense).

    I have moments where i think 'i want to test soon'  but then i remember how the last cycle went and how i became a mess. I dont want that again so im happy to continue in the bubble for the time being.
    My test day is the day of mums CT scan (which is at 8:45 in the morning) so im now rethinking test day and perhaps move it to the day before, just so i can let the result, which ever way it goes, sink in. I dont want to be emotional to my mum, who has no idea i am doing this, on a day when she needs my support.

    Today, was porky club weigh in, i havent been good at all this week, 2 slices of cake, bread, a Macdonald's  crisps and chocolate... and somehow i managed to loose 4lb! The only thing i can think of is that i have stopped the nasal spray.
    So, im now packing ready for our move on friday, no heavy lifting mind.
    Im off out tonight for a curry with friends and im debating whether to have a spicy one as ive read you shouldnt in the 2ww... however, this is my 6th 2ww (Jeez) and im only concerned about it now? 🤔

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    Dear Diary

    4dp5dt (FET)

    Ive woke up with my negative nancy head on this morning. Apart from the odd twinge, i feel completely normal. Im super tired, but that cant be down to anything but the cyclogest.
    I still have a whole week before i can test. As much as i want to test now, or tomorrow... i know i cant. I shouldnt.
    If it hasnt worked, and lets face it, i have more chance of it not working, than actually working. There is no point doing a test now, id rather be in a PUPO bubble.

    Nothing planned today 🙄