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My life as a mummy of 4 soon to be 5!
« Reply #30 on: 30/08/18, 12:43 »
34 weeks pregnant

Saw Mode of Birth midwife. Wanted a C section and to be sterilised. Explained my infertility, explained all my births, explained about needing closure on my fertility. Refused a C Section. I cried. The best she could suggest was induction. So that's the route I'm taking against my will. I need to have childcare in place. DH needs to be at home in the evening and through the night for ds2. So this is the only way. My anxiety is sky high. My mental health doesn't seem to matter as they are saving money by refusing.
So baby should be here 24th september.

Summer holidays are nearly at an end. I have really enjoyed it although it's been hard. The heat was fab but also a massive pain for me.

Time to get organised for s new baby, school and nursery x

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    « Reply #31 on: 7/09/18, 20:35 »
    35 weeks pregnant

    Had a check up yesterday and Baby gave us a scare. Midwife listened in and her heart rate was 175bpm which her usual is 150bpm. She did have hiccups and had been moving lots just before. So I was put on a monitor and had to click her movements. Well she moved 35 times in 25 minutes! I'm going to have my work cut out with this little girl went I?

    G started nursery again yesterday. He was fine me leaving him and had a lovely time.  Monday it's J turn to start school. I'm not ready for this at all.
    O speech is coming thick and fast! I can't believe how quick he picks things up. So proud.

    T is being odd. I'm worried about him. He barely communicates with me so can't get to the bottom of it.

    Gosh, so much to still get sorted in the next two weeks. It will fly by...

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    « Reply #32 on: 26/09/18, 01:19 »
    I am a mummy of 5  :)

    Baby Hannah was born yesterday at 5.30pm weighing a tiny 6lb 7oz

    The induction process was as I expected and not pleasant. Neither was getting the epidural but was fab once it worked. I started contracting spontaneously after my waters were broke. So midwife decided no hormone drip. Well my contracts did nothing. Until the drip was put in at 1pm then I dilated to 4cm and we were in established labour.

    Felt the pressure but no pain. Until it was ramped right up at 4. Dh had to go at 4.30pm due to bedtime routine. At 5 I felt pain right down the middle of my bump. With each contraction it got worse.
    The midwife had to handover at 5. At 5.15 as she was handing over I felt this hideous pain in my pubic bone and was begging for help. The new midwife lifted my dead leg and said baby's head was there. With one push her head was born and the next push her body came. Straight onto my chest. Dh missed his only daughter being born  :'( he's so upset about it.

    As births go it was the easiest. As Labour's go, it was my worst. Long drawn out slow process.

    Bf is going well.  I'm shattered but so very happy xxxxx

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    « Reply #33 on: 12/10/18, 11:28 »
    What?!..

    So our health trust has not only stopped c sections but now sterilisation and vasectomy have been stopped too!! Dh take the courage  ::) to go to the doctors about getting the snip. To be told that they have been stopped due to no money?! So dh still pays into the system but we can't get anything that we need, back?

    Told to have a coil. I don't want anything like that! I don't want hormone pills. I wanted a permanent solution. So looks like we will have to go private.

    Hannah is almost 3 weeks old. She is so beautiful girl with a good scream on her  :o

    Life is full on. It's amazing. It's so beyond my dreams. We are so lucky.

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    « Reply #34 on: 28/10/18, 21:19 »
    Baby H has already scared me with a hospital stay. Her finger looked odd a week after she was born. I asked the midwife and she said to keep an eye on it and I did. It got worse. Much worse that I rang 111 on a Saturday night and was sent to out of hours. Who sent us to hospital. Turns out she had an infection in it and it has pus. They squeezed the pus out. Had intravenous antibiotics.  It's still not better 2 weeks later so will be ringing the doctors tomorrow as antibiotics course finished a week ago.

    One stress after another.

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    « Reply #35 on: 4/12/18, 21:42 »
    My ICSI miracle is 5 on Friday. 5. Where the heck has that time gone?! He's doing so well at SEN school. He's communicating via PECs. Friday will be a calm birthday. No wrapping paper on his two things we have got for him. He can't cope with the noise.

    Baby girl had another course of antibiotics after GP consulted with the hospital. I'm so paranoid I look at her finger all the time. She's 10 weeks old already!

    O has been diagnosed as having my genetic marfans syndrome  :'( I got the call today. It's frightening and I'm upset for him. But it's s 50/50 gamble and we gambled 4 times and 1 has it. Also my oldest child has it. More things to worry about.

    T has now got a room in supported housing. He's doing better. He will be spending Christmas with us.

    Life is one massive worry for me and I'm really struggling to enjoy life. My children are my world. I worry constantly. I wish I could be more relaxed and be less stressed.

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    « Reply #36 on: 4/06/19, 20:42 »
    It's 6 months since my last update, I apologise  ::)

    Life is so hectic!! I'm so stressed but weirdly I keep telling myself that just remember my life 7 years ago and how bloody miserable I was. I will forever take the life I have now that's for sure.

    So where are we at?

    We gave just come back off holiday in paignton. So asd child decided that it was there he would poo smear and play with it. So that's fun  ::) Incontinence service won't help until another 6 months. Everything is a battle. Need a new car seat for him. That's 600. Awaiting charity funding to help towards it. He's doing great at school.

    Oldest turns 21 in a couple of weeks. He's still struggling  :'(

    Baby H is 8 months old. She us just gorgeous. I still can't believe I have a daughter.

    G starts school in September! He's ready bless him. He's my little rock. He helps, he's caring and kind. He can also be a little sod but I'm so happy he's my son.

    Little O is growing at a stupid rate! No word on the marfans  update or clinic.

    Me? I'm aging faster than the speed of light. My periods are very regular (fertility and infertility loves to have a good laugh at you doesn't it) my marriage is almost 10 years in and I'm so glad he's my dh  :-*

    Think that's about it for now...sorry it took so long to update x

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    « Reply #37 on: 6/12/19, 19:24 »
    I'm so busy, updating this diary is difficult as I never find the time.

    My ICSI miracle turns 6 tomorrow. The time has gone quickly. I thunk he might be aware something is happening. Tomorrow will tell us if he understands it's his birthday.

    I love that boy to bits. He delights me daily with  how much he us picking up. I can't wait to see his face when he opens his SEN mirror. He loves looking at himself.

    Anyway just a quick update
     
    T us still awaiting being housed. He's not taking his meds so had another fit A few weeks ago. He causes me so much worry. He turns 22 in 6 months.

    G is being a challenge now he had started school. He's a terror at home but a delight at school.

    O is almost 3. He's amazing with his speech. He's clever and funny.

    H is now 14 months and speaks lots. She has just learnt to walk. She's beautiful.

    Me? I'm being treated for extreme anxiety. Health anxiety. Every day I stress about my kids. I need to sort myself out. I want to enjoy my children but all I feel is fear.

    To anyone still reading, have a wonderful Christmas xx