I can't believe it's been such a long time since I've been on here. I decided to take a break for a while because I was in such a negative space. Things have really improved and I am feeling much better. Work is being handled and problems with my manager was escalated by the whole team. Hopefully the matter will be resolved in the next few months. I still can't believe what a huge impact it had on my mood. I'm working every day on reminding myself that work could never be as important as my precious babies!
So on to more important matters. My little babies have grown up in the blink of an eye. Not too long ago, they were feather light, they barely could do anything, I could leave them in one spot and they would stay there. Now they are so full of energy and they have these amazing personalities. My little innocent baby girl is full of mischief and spends all day bossing her brother around. As for her brother..he is a big teddy bear. They are two bundles of love that get squeezed so tight every single day. It's so amazing to interact with them now. We are even lucky enough to get kisses from my baby girl..long, slobbery, open mouthed kisses that go on and on. She loves kissing..especially the puppies 😣 Gone are the days of making sure everything is clean because theyou have taken to licking the floor, eating off the floor and always hunting for shoes that they can lick or bite..what is going on? They are more like puppies than babies these days! Crawling has progressed to standing independently and they love to practice all day long. Baby boy was crawling since 7 months, baby girl at 8 months and standing independently at 9 months. They can high 5, wave goodbye, clap hands, say mama and dada and my little girl is especially good at pincer pinches! They have become great little diners. They refuse mushy food now so my marathon cooking sessions on the weekends have slowed down. They eat chunky food now and have progressed to 3 meals a day. They lunch time meal is only finger foods and they are so good at eating by themselves. They love getting their little hands on what DH and I are eating. Even the spicy bits! They are such a joy and every day with them makes me love them so much more! I celebrated my first mothers day yesterday and I thought it would be a day without tears but of course there could be no such thing! Luckily this year it was only tears of happiness!
As for hubby and I..our relationship is so much better. We both realised how much of pressure we were putting on each other. After lots of conversations (more like heated arguments!) and making an effort to spend time together, there has been major changes. I hope we continue getting stronger. Being parents is a tough job and I've realised there is no way that I can be perfect all the time, I can only do my best and I think it will be good enough and for now that's all that really matters!
