Dear ladies who sent personal wishes, thanks for thinking of me.
I dramatically started bleeding last Tuesday night, and the hospital advised to get an ambulance in which I did - scan and exam and much, too much waiting later I finally got a bed on a ward at 11pm, after going into A&E at midday!! So hard leaving my little boy, but two friends came over to help with their kids and they all made the most of the sleepover.
The next day (Thursday) they still couldn't tell me when they'd operate, the cramps got much worse that morning and I had two types of painkillers to take the edge off. I was pacing and crying, and wearing adult nappies.
What upset me was the scan showed I'd already passed the pregnancy without realising, I had wanted to say goodbye in person and have some tests done which the hospital had already given me the forms for (it's my third loss so I wanted to have some answers). So no chance of that.
I was also being kept nil by mouth and very dehydrated, they found it hard to find a vein and it collapsed the next morning, so more needles and discomfort. It really didn't help my mood, and my little boy crying down the phone because he missed me.
I missed his bedtime again and finally made it home at 9pm, the bleeding almost stopped right after the surgery and I was desperate for some actual food.
It's good to read all your positive updates though, as I know how amazing it is to have things go right after a lot of disappointment. Hope you all get there and meet your wonderful, and healthy babies later on this year.xx
