Since the last update.....
We had our frozen cycle and 5DPT I tested, it was positive.
However at 10 weeks 4 days we found out I had had a missed miscarriage and our worlds shattered. To put it into context I had had some early bleeding around 5/6 weeks. After various blood tests it was determined everything was fine and I had scans at 7 weeks and 8 weeks.
We then decided to see a private consultant and at our first appointment she scanned me and said the baby had no heartbeat and measured at just over 8 weeks, meaning it had slipped away only a few days after our last scan.
2 rounds of medical management, a womb infection & a period later, I was given the all clear for round 2 so here we are.
Ive started taking the pill and my first injection will be on Thursday. In terms of protocol its very similar to last time however In order to prevent OHSS I am on a high dose of Meriofert for the first 3 days and then its been dropped down. If the timescales are the same as last time (which they may well not be because of the lower dose, I think i might have to stim for longer), my EC will be Monday 5th August and transfer would then be around 10th.
Weve canclled a holiday to Barcelone this weekend to take the pressure off which although I know is the right choice , is dissapointing because my DH booked it as a surprise for our wedding anniversary and i was so touched.
Regarding how im feeling, its anxious to get started but also VERY excited. The thought of IVF doesnt make me feel anything negative, but the thought of being pregnant again terrifies me. My miscarriage was by far the worst time of my life and although id say I handled it fairly well I know I dont have the strength to do it again. It would break me. Heres hoping I dont have to think about it!
xxxxx
ps the irony of my last post is not lost on me...what else could go wrong was I being serious??