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« Reply #10 on: 24/02/19, 02:59 »
How am I doing? Struggling a bit mentally. The physical toll of recovering from section and chest infection is affecting me mentally. A little bit down atm. Still caring for Biggles of course. I do most of the feeds day and night and most of the nappy changing. He dies cleaning bottles, washing nappies and keeping the house in order. Looks after the other 2 most of the time.

I took all 3 to a local forestry centre yesterday. Didn't realise how h3avy the pram was to get in and out of the boot. Dh decided to stay home, so no help there. Probably not good for 3wks post section to be lifting something that weight, but what choice did I have. 11 yr old was me struggling, so he helped me in the end. And helped me put th3 pram back in the car and get it out at home and. He can be so kind and helpful. Other days, not so much. But I was glad of the help he gave me.

Sick of the post partum bleeding. Think I'm done, get slightly active and it comes gushing back. Probably got another 3 weeka of this in all honesty
 
Mum took a pop the other day - " Why do you keep holding the baby when he's asleep? You should put him down, you'll spoil him!" And I just looked at her and said "why not?" Th3 way I figure it, you can't spoil  baby. He's spent 9 months inside me, he's going to want to be close to.me as often as possible. He also went stay a tiny baby for long, and will be up and doing soon enough, why shouldn't I enjoy sitting and cuddling my newborn for most.of the day and night. Its not as if I have anything spoiling, like food to cook or a house to clean or whatever. And even if I did, I would still think it's more important to cuddle and enjoy my baby. So she can do one. She may not have parented like this, but I do. And She can keep her opinions to herself.

Boys are loving having the baby around. 11 yr old likes holding him and actually does a good job. Biggles fell.asleep on him earlier. Eventually 11 yr old said can you take him, my arms are aching 😍 So of course I moved him.

I think he's putting on weight. He's back to between babygros. Some too small, others too big. I weighed the kids the other day. And then put Biggles in 11 yr old arms on the scales, but couldn't workout the difference. Think it was about 8 and half pounds difference. Not sure. I don't want to go to the health visitor clinic just for a weigh in, would rather not know than get those people involved.

He's been registered at the GP surgery. So all good. Hopefully they will get in touch for the 6-8 wk review, if not its easy enough to book in.

Right, atm I have friends on here messaging me. Lovely messages. I have tried to reply to the messages but for some reason it's saying I don't have the required permissions. I have contacted admin on here and I'm waiting for a resolution to this. So I have read messages and tried to get back in contact. Thinking of you x

Suppose I better get some sleep now little man has finished feeding and been changed. Will pop back soon enough no doubt.

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    « Reply #11 on: 3/03/19, 12:53 »
    So quick (or not so quick 😉) check in.

    I'm now pretty much back to normal. C scar has 1 sore bit. But, I'm back to taking the kids to their home ed events, climbing, trampolining, karate, dance and yesterday we added swimming lessons to the mix. So driving, and taxiing everybody. Still can't push a full shopping trolley, but I will get there.

    Mentally I'm still struggling. I think its how intense antenatal was as well as the prep they did and disnt warn me before they were doing it on the surgery table. I don't like feeling like a piece of meat at the best of times, but it also ramped my anxieties up to more than 100%. But I guess I have to accept that this is my new normal. I love having Biggles around, but the shine has been taken off slightly by the mental struggles I'm having. Its also had a knock on effect on my marriage he daren't touch me or kiss me because of how I'm feeling. So we feel quite disjointed. Not quite the team we were. I'm sure it will get better in time.

    I weighed myself yesterday. 9st5lbs, so not far off my pre-pregnancy weight. Which is good I then held Biggles in my arms and the scales jumped up to 10st. So I'm assuming he's around 9lbs now. As finally, the health visitor isn't hassling us. It took writing a letter to the health visitor hq to stop the hassle, but hopefully it's finished now.

    I have my thyroid/diabetic appt on Monday.. My GP mentioned my bloods had come back and cholesterol was a little high, but didn't mention anything else. I'm not worrying at this point, I expected my hormones to be all over the place and cholesterol couod realistically be slightly higher as GD diet was high fats and low carbs. No sugar. Guess I'll knkw more on Monday. Monday us going to be busy. Got to drop kids and hubby at climbing, then rush all the way back to my home town for the appt. Trying to figure out how I will manage to feed Biggles around all this. Hubby will bring the kids back on the bus. Then straight home and get ready to take J to dance. I simply don't have time to be ill/recover from surgery. So I'm sucking it up and carrying on.

    Right, someone is stirring. Think he has wind. I better go and sort him out 🙂

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    « Reply #12 on: 5/03/19, 22:58 »
    It was my first born Son's birthday on the 3rd and my 2nd son's birthday today. I took him a chocolate she's cake, com0lete with candles (rainbows and unicorns to make him giggle) some money and h3 got to meet his Biggles finally. We have face timed side Biggles was born but the first time they've met and had a cuddle. Very surreal!

    So then a woman in Tescos after celebrating with my son looked amazed when I said Biggles was mine. She hadn't even realised I was pregnant and we spoke to her 3 weeks before I had him. So although I thought I looked humongous (by my standards, yes I did) it mustn't have been that noticeable, or she thought I had middle age spread 😪🤣

    So then my mum brought me back to earth and said "she probably thought he was your grand child, what with you being mature and having grey hair!" Humph! I've had grey hair since I was 9 yrs old. Does that m3an 'll my kids have been viewed as grand children? Pfft!?!?!?!

    So I wonder how she would feel if theoretically I saved up for th3 next 2 yrs and went in for another 😂😂😂😂 48/49 and sporting another son. That would be a right laugh!!! No it's not a.serious thought. B3lieve me.

    Cholesterol high. Hba1c good. For now. As I am jumping food like no tomorrow. Thyroid good. More bloods in 6 weeks. Consult in 3 months.

    Apart from that, not a lot happening. Biggles has constipation and a bit of colic so it's very draining at night. However, a warm (washing up bowl in front of th3 fire) bath seemed to help him poo tonight. So might try that again tomorrow.

    Tak3 care all

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    « Reply #13 on: 8/03/19, 22:48 »
    Been a hard week, medically and physically.

    Biggles has constipation and the doctor has prescribed lactulose 2.5ml twice a day. It does seem to be helping. Although be was still in pain today so I ran the bath and got in the bath and DH passed him to me. Whilst in there, I massaged his poop tubes and that seemed to calm h8m down. I rest him on my crossed ankles and he absolutely loves it. Go3s really calm and relaxed immediately. I'm not surprised though as I was having baths ever6 day when I was pregnant.
    Hospital appt for me at the beginning of the week. Thyroid is fine, stick to 50mg once a day. Cholesterol is a bit high but I'm not overly concerned yet as I expect my hormones to be out of whack for a while.

    Scar started hurting and inside. So I got an appt with the doctor and yes, as suspected, there is n infection starting and he has put me on antibiotics again. Anyone that says c secs are statistically easier than vaginal births (for me anyway)are talking out their bottoms. 5 weeks on, and I've still got pain and I'm running an infection. With my vaginal, I was up and out the b3d within an hour, home with8n 6 hours and off doing my normal stuff with8n 24/48 hours. No pain, no worries. This birth and the aftermath is ongoing and bl00dy hard work. I've never taken so many painkillers.

    The lactulose for Biggles seems to be helping, but it's still tough trying to console him when he's trying to poop and it's not happening. Hoping it will get better in time.

    The boys absolutely adore him. And they always remember to wash their hands if they want a hold of him. It's lovely to watch them. It may well change when he's 18 months and turning off the internet to watch their reactions 😂😂😂

    Well the bath has exhausted him and he's put himself to sleep by the side if me. Such a cutie. He is so worth 3 yrs of investigations for underlying health issues and sorting them, gestational diabetes and ultimately the cesearean from hell. Not that I have previous cesearean to compare to. All the infections, and the endless reams of pain killers. For all that, I must definitely would not be without him. My world rises and sets wirh him. All my kids set this feeling off in me but more him at the moment as he depends on me for absolutely everything. He/they are my everything. Nothing else matters but their happiness..

    Don't think I'll ever stop feeling so lucky and so blessed.

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    « Reply #14 on: 11/03/19, 09:42 »
    Poor little Biggles is suffering still. May actually have to buy a baby bath 😱 as warm water does seem to help. He had a right screaming session last night because of constipation and the only thing that calmed him down was playing the greatest showman album ....... again!

    Antibiotics seem to be helping my c sec scar. It seems to be getting better. That's all that counts for me physically... mentally I'm a little better. I'm guessing this will take time.

    DH is moaning that it's been ages since we were intimate. 😡 he can carry on moaning. Don't get me wrong, has been patient. But I'm shattered most days. I do day feeds and night feeds. I do changing every bottom as he's (his words) too slow at doing cloth nappies and baby gets upset. Well if you don't practise, you don't get faster. And honestly, rhere not that different from disposables. I use a pocket wrap and prefolds, which have already been set up. So all he has to do is remember you don't put them as high on the back as disposables. Pull the tab part upwards and popper up. I mean come on, is it really that difficult? He mainly makes bottles, cleans up occasionally and cooks meals. Spends most of his day, making milliput models or drawing or on the x box. I spend most of my day, cuddling and consoling a very uncomfortable baby. Shopping. Driving people to wherever. Feeding a baby, changing a baby. And he wonders why I don't look at him with lust in my eyes! Flipping man up and start pulling your finger out your bottom and I might look favourably upon you!!! Not too favourably mind 😂

    Been to the surgery to arrange 6 week post check up. Apparently my surgery doesn't do the post check up till 8 weeks and then does the vaccinations on baby at the same time. I'm a bit took back with that. It's always been 6 weeks. Still whatever I suppose.

    Not a lot else happening really. The days zoom by. I can't believe he's nearly 6 weeks old. How is that possible?

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    « Reply #15 on: 20/03/19, 10:33 »
    Biggles has started smiling in the last 3 or 4 days. 😍😍😍. There's nothing quite like a baby's smile. Lifts your spirits and makes your heart sing.


    Constipation is getting better slowly. Mainly down to me stopping the lactulose which was causing awful stomach cramps and in desperation on Sunday morning (after a god awful Saturday and even worse night) I nipped to Morrison's and bought prune juice. No judging please! I gave him 1 oz of prune juice diluted to 3oz of cooled boiled water. So 4 oz in total. His stomach cramps started to subside a little and 4 hours later he had pooped with minimal pain. At the moment, he has diluted prune juice in the morning when he starts to strain and again in the evening if he hasn't managed to poop. He is so much happier and calmer. So for me, this is exactly right for him. He is still on 50z of milk powder to 6 oz of water. It works for him as it did my other formula fed babies. He has extended his time between feeds from 3 hours to 4 hours in the day and 5 hours overnight. So the milk is definitely the right strength and consistency for him.  I kept my 23 yr old, my 11 yr old and my 8 yr old (after he refused boobs at 6 months)  on that strength till fully weaned and all of them are healthy kids. They gained weight steadily and had lovely rolls of fat on them. So I know it doesn't harm them.

    Where Biggles is concerned, the GP also suggested weakening the milk and I had to admit I already was. With my other kids, the health visitors suggested it and again I already bad done so. The dangerous thing to is more milk powder to less water and that is something I would never do.

    Biggles is chunking up nicely now. His thighs have some meat on them, his cheeks are lovely and chubby and his arms aren't stick thin now. He has moved up to 0-3 months in some clothes and 3-6 months in other, in part down to his cloth nappy as they're big and bulky, but the 3-6 also fit his length and girth.

    He still sleeps quite a lot, mainly on me. 🙂 and he loves being swaddled. He likes the car when the ignition is on. Screams when it's not. And he absolutely adores his brothers. Sits and "talks" to rhem and smiles at them now....... a lot. He's still not completely okay with his dad yet. Although dad spends a lot of time upstairs, out the way and let's me deal with Biggles, so what does he expect? The kid doesn't know him, so doesn't like spending time with him.

    However, I had a go at hubby the other day about this...... after 6 hours of baby straining and screaming and virtually inconsolable. I dealt with Biggles for 6 hours on my own! Comforting, holding, bathing, massaging, cycle legging him and after 5 hr+, hubby (who had sat beside me watching dvds the whole time 😡😡) said "Do you need any help with him???) As i had just managed to calm the baby down and get him to sleep 🤬😡🤬😡 "No, I f*&^%$g don't now was the reply. I also said " you make his bottles with the prep machine throughout the day, you don't change his bottom ever, you don't help me when he's like this and in pain, I feel like a single mother. And if you continue to sit with your finger up your ass and let me deal with this on my own, I will be a single mother! Get your fluffing act together NOW!!!

    Monday I got to take 8 yr old to dance without Biggles and yesterday my mum and i managed to do 3 hrs of shopping without Biggles. I don't know how long this will last for, but it's a welcome break. Enjoy it while it lasts. He even managed to change a cloth nappy in my absence. Shock!Horror! 😂 Lets see how long it lasts before he slips back into old habits and he has to have another kick up the ass!

    Right, Biggles is straining slightly, so im going to go and pump his cycle legs to help him.


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    « Reply #16 on: 21/03/19, 22:46 »
    We've been to a new ball park for a home ed meet up today. Of course Biggles stole the limelight  ;D ........ as usual! My other boys were spoken to and all the mum's made sure my boys were definitely involved in conversations, but when they were off playing, their focus was on Biggles.

    I did try to allow one of the mum's to hold him, but, he's all me. 😆😍 as it should be. As hubby says "if he was a baby chimp, he would be holding on to his mother the whole time. It's natural Biggles wants to be with you!"So all good.

    I shall rewind though. This morning I thought I need a bath. What to do with Biggles? So I took a pillow and a duvet quartered up and placed over the pillow. Biggles is showing signs of reflux/colic So I try to keep him tilted. He was fairly sleepy so I swaddled him and lay him on the duvet. I got a bath in peace. Then I was a mean mummy and woke him, bathed him and washed his hair. Noticed cradle cap, so afterwards I smeared Vaseline over the cradle cap, waited half an hour and then rubbed it off carefully with a slightly rougher towel. He now has no cradle cap 😊 All the old fashioned tips and tricks are coming back to me.

    Spent the evening cuddling him and making up prefolds and pocket wraps. Now in bed and he's flat out. Had a good feed. Put half an ounce of prune juice in his bottle as this really does seem to help him on th3 constipation front. He now has minimal pain with pooping, so I've reduced it from an ounce twice a.day (diluted in either milk or cooled boiled water) to half an ounce twice a.day. If he copes with that, then I shall reduce to half an ounce once a.day. This should all take about a fortnight. I'm also carefully changing his formula from aptamil to Aldi mamia. After watching dispatches and there all much of a muchness, same ingredients etc, laid out in strict guidelines, if I continue to buy aptamil, I'm paying more for the brand. When they're all virtually the same. I pay 11 for aptamil which lasts a week. Also the box is 800g. Checked Aldi mamia and it's 7 and 900g. At the moment, money is mega tight, so I think mamia is the way to go.

    Kids start gymnastics next week. I'm wondering how 11 yr old will cope when he realises parents aren't allowed in. 😱 but we shall give it a shot. Yes, money is still very tight, but this is a free sample session. So we shall play that one by ear. They're also at the local trampoline meet up next week. Just want to give the boys the best opportunities I can as we are completely responsible for their education.

    So I had an unveiled question moment concerning age in McDonald's today. We were all eating and I was feesing Biggles and a member of staff came over to look at him. Said he was gorgeous blah. Now I have grey hair. I've always had grey hair since the age of 9. And She blatantly asked if he was mine? I imagine she assumed the older ones were mine but I was either child minding or he was my grand child. So I replied mine. And She then said God I bet he was a shock to the system after the massive age gap between him and your older kids. And I said no, he was very much planned and wanted. The shock on her face was class. She then said well I bet you're feeling it this time round, compared to your other 2. And I said other 3 actually, I have a 23 yr old. Again shock!And I went on to say, I'm actually finding this one easier in a lot of ways than the others. As a mum in my 20s and 30s, patience was an issue. However as new mum in my 40s, I have oodles of patience. And no, he tiredness levels is no different. She couldn't believe it. Said I was very brave having another at this time on my life. She couldn't do it. I wanted to respond with "Well no-one asked you to!"but instead I smiled and said thanks. I wimped out!!!! So glad I won't ever get the whispers and the stares at the school gates as he won't ever set foot in one. She then wandered off to do her job.

    Right, I'm going to get some shut eye while I can 😘

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    « Reply #17 on: 23/03/19, 20:18 »
    I think the ether or whoever is conspiring against me/us. More money worries. Why m I not allowed to enjoy my pregnancy as was and why am I not allowed to enjoy my new baby boy.

    We (adults) took the decision to not apply for universal credit and he would get a job. HAHAHAHAHA! Eventually he said apply for universal credit while I look at getting a job, at least we'll have an income. Number 1 - Has he looked? Has h3 beggary 😡😡😡

    Number 2 - what I predicted and he pooh pooped it, won't happen babe had happened. 😡😵😡😠😡

    I shall explain.

    I am disabled. I drive a specially adapted car with hand control through motability and Personal Independent Payments. He is my full time carer. So I stated I didn't want to apply for universal credit after EmploymentSupport Allowance said I wasn't disabled enough and wasn't pregnant in Dec 2018 and declared me fit for work. I said if we ever had to move over to UC, it would trigger a PIP  review and no doubt knowing this govt they will declare me magically cured from an incurable condition and I will lose my PIP and my car. He said no that won't happen.

    Guess what's happened???? First payment of UC and we get back from the kids swimming lessons to find the PIP questionnaire through the letterbox. They need me to answer questions about my condition and I may need to be re-assessed in due course. With this current govt,  we already know the outcome. Just carry on hitting the vulnerable and the poor. I shall have to be reassessed and they will deem me magically cured. I shall lose my money and my car. I will do mandatory reconsideration and I will get turned down again. Just like I did with ESA. I can of course  appeal but rhat takes months. Months of uncertainty and stress.

    As it is, with our first payment of UC we are down 100's of pounds already. And we have to pay rent out of the payment. Mum has been thankfully for months  been paying for petrol, food, gas electric. Now she will have to pay all that as well as whatever the kids need. Because of this massive reduction we've already took. My direct debits are 300 a month (yes excessive, nothing I can cut) and with what we got and a financial breakdown, after bills and rent and council tax, (before pip gets taken off me) we will have 50 for food, petrol gas, electric to last us a month. How the actual fluff are we meant to stretch that far? And if this continues, how do I pay for everything when my mum dies?  Oh yeah, she's even had to take over buying the dogs prescription food. So there are some harsh decisions to make.

    1. The dog needs to be put down as I simply can't afford him anymore and at 14 with health issues it's not fair to put him in rescue. No-one will take him on.
    2. Rehomethe cats or put them in rescue. They don't bring us money in and their a drain on finances.
    3. Get Biggles a passport ASAP.  When I lose my car, there is nothing in England to keep me here. So sell everything in the house and relocate to Bulgaria. The cost of living is cheap. And my mum has probate on my brothers shoddy properties over there. Gather as much money as we can and start a new life in a country I hate, with food I hate, but at least it's cheap. Other half start doing handy man jobs over there for the British expats as the British expats don't like Bulgarian workers as they do half a job but demand all money up front and never finish the jobs.
    4. There is no number 4. If he gets a job in the UK, were still as worse off as we are now. He trained yrs ago ad a warehouse operative. Isn't good money in warehousing. Plus it's all agency or zero hours contracts these days. I don't want to have had a child, and Then get others to care for him (at great cost) just to get enough money to get by.

    So we are now officially living below the poverty line. Except the govt stated there is no poverty line anymore!
    Honest to God, I feel like sticking my head in the oven right now. Except it's electric 😂 So I would get nasty burns, nothing else.
    And all the while, I still struggle with the c section. That's the gift that keeps on giving. Infection after infection and a nasty kangaroo pouch. I always hated my stomach before, but it's a whole new level now. I still can't lift certain things and that's 7 weeks on. I still have flash backs and bad dreams. I failed at breast feeding because of the physical pain from the c section and the mental anguish I was in. As I say, cesearean section -the gift that keeps on giving!

    I'm starving now, but I'm contemplating whether or not to eat. If I eat, we have to find the money to replace the food I've had. If I wait till breakfast and have cereal, cereal is 99p from Aldi. That's doable. If I have to replace full meals, that will be more expensive. Decisions, decisions. How much would an omelette cost to replace. I might have an omelette.

    I had an eating disorder in my 20's. Managed to go 6 weeks on an apple a day and water. Dropped over a stone. Got me down to 6 and half stone at the time. I don't really want to go back to those days, they were very dark days, but I'm thinking I don't have much choice financially. As long as th kids are fed, and I have money for Aldi formula, nothing else matters. Could do with dropping a bit of baby weight 😉😂

    I'm sure the Gods are conspiring against us!

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    « Reply #18 on: 26/03/19, 08:41 »
    Filled in the form, hubby wrote his carers statement. Photocopied the form and have sent it off. Asked one of my dance mum friends (who lives opposite me) if she would be able to help take youngest(sorry not youngest anymore 😂)  to dance and back home should I lose the car as I will be housebound. Dont quite knkw who I'm going to ask for climbing and trampolining though 😔

    We had local councillors come round on Sunday. "Are you going to vote for us?" Type spiel. They got very short thrift from both of us. I have voted every time local and general elections have come up. Very aware of what women had to go through to get the power to vote in the first place. But, you know, over the years, I have come to the conclusion that it doesn't matter if you vote or not as our voices as a nation aren't listened to, and every councillor/party are.after the power, feathering their own nests and all Rob the poorest and most vulnerable members if the nationwide community to give it back tothe rich. So there's no point voting. They will do what they want, when they want and how they want regardless.

    Look at brexit. They in my mind didn't really get a definitive vote to leave, however it was a vote to leave. The day after, they came clean and said all the propaganda about 350m would go to NHS etc were all lies. Which I saw through. Years later, were still no closer to leaving, and a revoke article 50 petition has reached 5million signatures. I believe if more people had seen through the BS at the time then remain would have won. Personally, I don't believe brexit will ever happen. Too much in house squabbling as none of th3 govt want to leave regardless of what their mouths are saying. Which is good for me 🙂 as the plan is still to emigrate if things get much worse here for me and my family. Why stay in a sinking ship when I could start a new life in the sun. In a country where the corruption from the very top downwards is transparent. You know exactly what you're getting. Unlike this country where the corruption is always lurking in the corner,but the govt aren't transparent about th3 corruption.

    Slightly other news. I have filled in Biggles passport application, and am taking him to get his photos done today. His counter signature person is free Thursday,.So I shall fit that around trampolining. Then pay up and wait 2-3 weeks and Biggles will be ready to fly!

    Just got to ring the solicitor and see how everything is progressing with my brothers estate. Hopefully it's moving forward so we can sell all the houses and buy a property (better condition) of our own. Then were gone! If not, there is one company that does monthly payment plans on his houses. So if we're no further forward, I will seriously look into that option.

    Why is it that Biggles always does a 💩 in the middle of the night 5 minutes after I've changed his bottom!!! He even has the cheek to smile at me beforehand and then drop his guts. Bless him 😂 Makes me laugh really. I then change him again. I'm not having a stinky boy lying on top of me or next to me 😂.

    We have our post partum checks on Thursday. No immunizations until the week after as they need to get an imms nurse in. It's a very small surgery coping with a big list of patients. So just have to be patient I guess.

    Should I tell the GP hat since the cesearean I get really restless legs in bed at night  it can be quite painful. And also I get random stabbing pains in my right hip. So much so, it takes my breath away. I possibly should mention these, if I remember.

    He's waking up, so I better go.

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    Ran out of prune juice (went off) Tuesday night 😕 Wednesday morning lots of crying as he couldn't poo. Unfortunately kids had an early class for gymnastics, exclusively set up for home educated children. So we had to wait until class was over. Biggles had a bottle there and promptly did an absolute pukenami over their floor. I was mortified. Gymnastics was good, boys enjoyed it.
    Afterwards, we went and bought prune juice. Got it home, diluted it, fed him and spent all afternoon and evening consoling a very unhappy baby who still couldn't poo. This morning, I gave him some more as he was still uncomfortable and an hour or so later, poo arrived! Thank God! Minimal pain and he looked so pleased 😂 So was I. He's now calm and gone back to sleep.

    Boys have trampolining later and then Biggles and I have our 8 week post partum check. Should have been immunizations  as well, but the surgery haven't got an imms nurse in the surgery till next week. So post partum check for me, 8 weeks health review for him and then book his vaccinations appointment.

    He had a lovely bath last night, in with me. Bath was full of bubbles. 😂 He looked well cute, surrounded by them. I kept putting his feet on my belly and saying push! When he did push, I made him "swim" 😂 I'm not sure if by the end he was understanding the word push or it was just a lovely coincidence. Probably coincidence. But even the slightly warmer than he's used to water didn't help him to poo. It honestly felt quite cool, but when he was taken out, his skin was pink. Oops. But, to be fair, he didn't cry at all in the bath l, so it can't have scalded him as such. And he was very relaxed and calm in the bath.

    More cradle cap found and eliminated. Vaseline rubbed into his scalp, waited half an hour or so and used a prefold to run the Vaseline off, along with the cradle cap. Scalp feels lovely and smooth again now. And he has hair growing back where he had gone bald. Just the front of his head. Very weird. But it's growing back now so all good.

    He's very snuffly atm. So I keep putting snuffle baby on the soles of his feet and inside the shoulder part of his vest. It does seem to be helping somewhat. Only hope he's got rid if the sniffles for next week. Secretly hope he doesn't as we will have to delay immunizations. I feel as he will be home educated he doesn't really need the vaccinations but his dad is adamant he's having them. I know as the mum I can overrule him, but atm, I'm willing to allow it to happen as long as he takes him, he signs the consent form and he holds him down while somebody stabs his tiny son. Yes, the other lads have been done. I know in my heart of hearts it's the right thing to do, for him and the community but .........

    The only vaccinations I've had are polio and rubella. Mum didn't agree with vaccinations and as such I didn't have them as a baby. In those days at 14, you were asked to take a vaccination letter home and my mum and i discussed them at length. She said at 14, I had the right to make my own decisions concerning immunisation and I chose not to have the one where you and up with a circle scar but have the rubella (always wanted kids) and the polio as it was on a spoon. I have never bothered to get immunized as an adult. And as irresponsible as it sounds, I've always been okay. But meningitis wasn't around when I was little. That's the one that truly scares me. So he will get done, as it's best for everybody, him and the wider community, but I don't have to be happy about it. 😂

    He's stirring again, so I better sign off for now.