I haven't been on here for a few years. We have unexplained infertility. Been trying since 2011. We had one round of IVF a few years ago which didn't work (decent embryo but BFN). Due to extreme side effects during treatment I couldn't face trying it again with the low odds of success.

Anyway, we've kept trying naturally but it's been so long, and I'm now 38, that I thought I'd resigned myself to the fact it would never happen.
However... a couple of years ago I was diagnosed with arthritis. Consultants have been keen for me to go onto methotrexate for it, which doesn't treat the symptoms right now but is a long-term medication that can prevent/reduce future flare-ups, meaning fewer joints affected in the future, hopefully less disability in the longer term, etc.
It's not safe to TTC on methotrexate. In fact women who take it have to stop for several months before they TTC as it's that harmful to unborn babies. So, until now I've resisted going onto it and played 'wait and see', seeing how my arthritis progressed and whether we got lucky with TTC.
I feel like I'm at a tipping point. My joints have got worse more quickly in the last year, plus with my age I know TTC is an increasing long shot. I feel like it might be time to start treatment, but it will be so final in terms of TTC. I do a lot of exercise and sport though and I worry about my physical health in the future.
I'm not really sure why I'm posting... I think I just need to get this off my chest.

I don't know how to 'get over the line' and make this final break...