So... I have not kept a fertility diary for about 18 months now. I am about to start our last fresh ICSI, we did one in 2008 which we were amazingly lucky to have work first time, DD is 11 now abs I still can’t believe our first timers luck... Then we did three FETs from that and got our DD2. I feel guilty when I type and think this (I shouldn’t really though...) but I am so desperate for another baby... it is a longing that has never lessened. DH said no for years and then suddenly changed his mind 3 years ago 😮 We did another fresh, BFN, next FET BFP but ectopic at 8 weeks, have done another 4 FETs since. This is most definitely our last ever try, age is not on our side and money isn’t either.
I am due to stop the pill on the 22nd January and then start Buserelin injections 2 days after withdrawal bleed with baseline scan on the 26th.
I am in a bit of a head pickle atm, I have IBS and the last two weeks have been the worst ever, doubled up with the pain, constant nausea and period type pain, strong twisting cramps to the side. Have been to GP, had more tests done, been referred for a colonoscopy and also a mammogram as my left boob is lumpy. Never had that before. My pickle is whether you delay the cycle or not until I am feeling more healthy... I am so desperate to get started but at the same time don’t want to mar this last opportunity... I have been on DHEA for over 2 months but have only just started Ubuiquinol, PQQ is being delivered tomorrow. So I also would like to delay for 3 months to be able to take these for the proper amount of time to help my eggies.
I spoke to the clinic today as hadn’t had a response from my email of Wednesday, they will show it to the consultant on Monday and we’ll go from there. I honestly don’t know whether I will lose money or not either, if it is my choice...
This lockdown certainly isn’t helping anything either, I do feel quite stressed with it all atm.
Anyway, don’t know if anyone will read my waffle but thank you very much if you have popped in xx
