Hi guys, Been scanning the net today for some support as I'm not getting any at the moment from the hospital. Been off work with immense endo pain,flooding etc for last 3 days and I'm due to pick up the down regulation drugs on 8/5/08 to start self funded ivf. Just feel that everything is goin wrong before I start and its overshadowing the excitement that I WANT 2 b feeling right now b4 the ivf begins. Found out the day after we committed to Ivf that I'm being made redundant from work and, as a result, my endo pains just getting worse as I'm worried how I'm gonna pay back the money we've loaned to do it . I really wanted a support groups phone number or website address but haven't even been pointed in the right direction by the consultant - he didn't look at me once during our last consultation and we timed how long that meeting was - 3 MINUTES!!!SO ANGRY!!! £100 for 3 Min's work, not bad eh?? I'm defo in the wrong job. We were given a pack of stuff to read but Ive got most of my info from the net re: ivf procedure etc. don't know what drugs are for what, symptoms to expect etc-can any1 help me?? Ive just read this back and I'm sounding like a right moaner but I'm scared and angry and fed up and if I changed what Ive just typed then I'm not telling u whats in my heart or my head and that would be a cop-out i feel. Ive got the best partner ever and hes so excited to start the ivf but I'm not in that place because I worry in-case it doesn't work that I'll be left feeling worse than ever. Does anyone have any suggestions on how I can face the procedure and obtain the tools to stay strong if it doesn't work?? Thank u so much for taking the time to read my moaning and i really would be grateful for any tips. Next time, I promise to be more positive.
Love, Em x