At 39 I’ve just had my 2nd round of ICSI end in no heartbeat. It was later the first time at @10 wks so this is just awful for us. I was given the max dose of meds and still only 1 egg fertilised and this time they left to a blastocyst until they did the transfer. We have 1 round left to squeeze in before my bday in jan but I already feel like there’s no point. I don’t know at this point if I’ll have to have a donor egg but I red they have no resemblance to the mother so I’m not sure how I will feel. Atm it feels like my husband would be better off with someone else. Dark thoughts and what’s the point of life right now. Miscarriage hasn’t even started so more waiting. I hate feeling this low.