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I'm 10dpt following my first ICSI treatment and am due to test on 1st December. I've tested early a couple of times this week (couldn't stop myself) and when the result came as negative was able to tell myself that it was way to early to test and put it behind me and generally stay reasonably positive (although slightly insane) through the 2ww.

This morning I tested and got a negative and have been feeling very down all day feeling like if it isn't positive by now then it is unlikely to be. I've been tearful all day and have not seemed to be able to get myself to snap out of it.

I know it's my own stupid fault for testing but I really feel like it hasn't worked and am getting very worked up about how I am going to be able carry on normally, work etc, if it has failed. Also feeling (and I know after my first attempt this may sound totally daft) like it will never work and I will never be Mum  :(

I keep telling myself to stop being so negative and feeling sorry for myself but yet can't seem to hold in the tears either.

I'm sorry for such a negative post - felt like I needed to get it off my chest.

 

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Shannon
I really feel for you, I too am at the same stage as you, I am testing the same day as you, I was tempted today too, but thank god I didnt give in, this is out 7th full go of IVF, and I have learnt that testing early is not good for me, OK people do get a positive on day 10, but the clinics do know what they are talking about, they would say day 10 if they thought it would be a true result then.
So please try and find your positivity again, and please please put away those pee sticks until Wednesday.

I am hoping and praying you get a  ^reiki^ and you will know for sure it is a real result

Love Jo
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Hi Shannon

I am also on 2ww and having a bad day!!  :'( :'( (prob not much help to you but thought we could have a good blub together!!)

I have been feeling very negative today, as it is now the stage where what is going to be is going be.  Early on in the wait, it was like nothing had yet been determined.

It has been quite hard on hubby today as he is really trying to be positive and dosn't even want to hear talk of negative results.  My blubbering was really hard for him, and i actually apologised for bringing us both down....
I was due to have a couple of friends visiting today and the thought of socialising was horrible, however, now i have seen them both i actually feel much better.  I kind of just want to hibernate, and not come into the real world until everything is lovely!!

Sorry for moaning, but you are not alone hun.  On a positive note for you it is definitely very early to be testing and have heard of peopl getting negatives on day 10 and then go onto get positives.

We can all get through this together  ^Cuddle^
Loads of love
Kel
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Right! Come on you girls and embies!!! :) ^reiki^ ^reiki^
All these negative thought are not good for your embies! Where are your ORANGE Knickers when you need them?
I'm testing 1st December too, and although nervous and desperately tempted I've not yet given in to the ^police^ Why? Because our clinic said they are not accurate unless you're having Twins or more at this stage (12 dpt)!! And if it's not twins, that will be a lot less hard work! So come on ! Chins up! It's not over til the fat (or in our case Thin!!) lady sings!
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I'm also testing on Wednesday and I know exactly how you feel Shannon  :'(  I really don't think that testing early helps though!  That's exactly why I have avoided doing so as I think it causes you more anxiety.

I have also found the last two weeks very hard as this is also my 1st ivf and I really didn't know what to expect  ??? I still don't really  :eek:

I've got two things to be thankful for and I think the same counts for all of us FF buddies:

1. Thank god I found this website or I really wouldn't have a clue what was going on through this tx.  And that I have so many friends out there.

2. The worrying is never over until that little bubs is handed to you in the delivery room  :) and then the worrying really begins!  ;D

Jac is right, its really not over yet unless you really want it to be - its a long journey but I refuse to believe that there's isn't a rainbow at the end of it.

Shannnon/Mrs G -  ^reiki^  we are all due to test on the same day and I've got everything, that I can cross, crossed for all of us ^reiki^

Nic G xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 

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Thank you all for your responses I do feel better for getting it off my chest.

Jo - I hope that this will be your lucky number 7 with a beautiful  ^reiki^ result at the end of it. You are of course 100% right in saying that why would the clinics make us wait if after 10 days we could get a reliable result.

Jac - Your words have made a difference to how I am feeling, thank you - it isn't over till it's over and I truly hope one day I am sitting by the PC with a baby/babies in a moses basket telling someone feeling how I do today that their dream will happen too.

Kelly1 - Sounds like our day and the day of our dh's have been very similar. My dh has been so supportive throughout even when I told him to shove a cyclogest somewhere and see if he feels so positive then! What you say about hibernating is exactly how I feel although I'm sure it's the worst thing to do because then all you think about is your tx - I forget sometimes the world carries on turning while all this is happening!

Woppa -  I giggled when I read your post you must have spent a fortune on the evil peesticks!  They are  ^evil^!!!

MrsG -  That was a very welcome telling off! I have no orange knickers but I do have a big orange spot  ^spot^

Nicola - Totally agree about this website it's fabulous with very amazing and supportive people.

You girls are all amazing, thank you so much I do feel a little better now so hopefully my eyelids will have chance to recover and return to their normal size! Lots of tests coming up I hope and pray for lots of positives  ^reiki^ ^reiki^

I am determined to get to my rainbow, no matter how long the journey  ^rainbow^ Nicola - I love that saying and am adding it to my signature  :)

Here's to Wednesday  ^fairydust^  ^reiki^ ^reiki^

Thank you all.
 

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Hi Shannon,

Hope you're feeling better today.  I've just posted on the 2WW list - i think I'm having a bit of a day like you did yesterday.

I am due to test 1st Dec (lots of luck to you, Jo and Caroline for the same day!) and have resisted the temptation to test early.

This is my first cycle of IVF and feel that I will jinx the result if I test early - yes, madness has well and truly set in!  I've found myself being so superstitious - counting magpies etc!!

Sending out  ^reiki^ to everyone!

Copper
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Speaking of being superstitious Copper - I've invested in a few orange things, including an orange baby t-shirt which I have dressed my stuffed monkey in.... now that's bizaare! :eek: ;D The monkey sleeps with me in bed as hubby works away from home :) When I wake up, I see orange!

I notice everything around me that is orange now, and never used to! Such as, I have an orange mouse pad, bought orange roses, have orange on my socks (well, a few pairs of them!), an orange giraffe toy, my elmo doll has an orange nose, I have orange soap in the shower, my facial wash is orange liquid..... the list goes on..... now who's going mad?? ;D ^spin^

I was telling this to a friend of mine, who like me, is a psychiatric nurse... she said "GO FOR IT - whatever helps your mental state"..... and so far, orange is good!


^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^reiki^
^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^

Love & hugs to all!

I hope this made those of you having a bad day laugh a little!

^fairydust^

~Natt~
 

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Hiya,
Me again (I've already posted on November 2ww thread).
Just wanted to talk to you about hCG tests.  I'm presuming the clinics are making you wait until after day10/12 because they are doing a urine test rather than a blood test?  Generally speaking, blood tests will show up positive around a 10 days after fertilisation.  Urine hCG tests, I'm talking about HPTs here, usually show a positive hCG above 50 IU/L.  A lot of them these days are sensitive down to 25IU/L.  However, at day 10/12 you're hCG could be between 25 and 5IU/L (< 5IU/L is a negative mostly).  So these tests could show up as very faint lines or you might not be able to say one way or the other whether a line is there or not.  You would have to wait a few more days for the hCG to increase enough to react with the stick to produce a definitive positive result.
Hope this clears up a few things.
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Hiya Shannon,

Just popped over here to wish you good luck for tomorrow.
^goodluck^ ^goodluck^ ^goodluck^ ^goodluck^ ^goodluck^

love
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Hi Natt,

Yep, that bout of madness was definitely enough to cheer me up! :)

Strangely enough I also have a cuddly monkey so maybe it's time I went out and brought him an orange T shirt!! ;D

Copper
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Hiya Shannon

Just reading thru a few posts and saw urs

Just wanted to wish u lots of love and luck for ur test day tomorrow

^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^reiki^ for a BFP

Keeping everything crossed for u

I hope that u get the result u so much wish for

Catch up soon
love and hugs
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Hello everyone...I'm on stimms but just wanted to wish you all loads of luck and  ^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^reiki^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^goodluck^ ^goodluck^ ^goodluck^ ^goodluck^ ^goodluck^ ^goodluck^ ^goodluck^ ^goodluck^ ^goodluck^

for tomorrow, your all really brave and I hope to get as far as you. Think postive, stay postive right up until the very last second.
big hugs to you all
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Hello everyone,

This is just a quick post to let you all know that we have received the results back from the Clinic and sadly we got a BFN.

We are obviously very disappointed and upset but we are also resolved to try again and stay as positive as we can because we are not yet ready to give up on our dream.

All of your support and good wishes have been so appreciated. I will catch up on personals later but in the meantime send everyone lots of positive vibes and best wishes.  ^reiki^
 

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Hi girls

Guess it's my turn to have a bad day.  Am overjoyed that there's been a few BFP's over the boards, and am SO happy for the ladies........ but I am so scared for me!  :'( Have just had a good cry in an attempt to release all my tension, and now have puffy eyes  :eek: I can't really put in to words how I'm feeling. Terrified that this tx won't work, optimistic about future times, scared that they never even put an embie in (my clinic doesn't use ultrasound at ET), feel silly for thinking silly.. all that jazz.

:-\

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Hi Girls

Ditto for me too  :-\ :-\
I am now really anxious and having same worries.  Don't think my clinic used ultrasound??

Love
Kel
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Come on girls, let's have some lovely positive thoughts  ^reiki^ ^reiki^

It is not in the clinics best interests to not put embryos back in you! They want positive results for their success rates. Not all clinics use ultrasound but they all check that the embryos went back in and so I really don't think you should worry about this.

When you are telling yourself that the tx may not work say straight away afterwards the tx may work. When you thinking you will never get your dream straight away think that you will. We are all a bunch of very determined ladies, we have wonderful partners and the support of each other - with that sort of strength we can help each other through until one by one we all get our dreams fulfilled.

I'm keeping everything crossed for all of you for lovely BFP results.

^fairydust^ ^fairydust^
 

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SHannon, you are an inspiration to us all!

I totally agree, and now am positive and looking forawrd to a bfp next week.

I am thinking of you all girls, and sending you strong positive messages

^fairydust^ ^fairydust^ ^fairydust^ ^fairydust^ ^fairydust^ ^fairydust^ ^fairydust^ ^fairydust^ ^fairydust^ ^fairydust^ ^fairydust^ ^fairydust^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^ ^spot^
 

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Big up to Shannon for your very psoitive attitude since your BFN.
You are an inspiration girl. To all you who are on the 2WW
POSITIVE VIBES COME YOUR WAY
LOTS OF LOVE
JAN WELSHY AND STEVExxxxxxxxX
 
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