Hi everyone!
Sorry I've gone very quiet - nothing wrong, just super busy and trying to stay that way as easier than thinking!
Had our follow up on Monday afternoon and basically told there are no more tests that can be done - certainly not on the NHS anyway! And that we should just go again with our blasto frostie in a couple of months - after 3 bleeds. Happy enough with this I suppose. Did find out that my EC was awful and they had to change consultants half way through and instead of sucking out each egg, they had to flush them out in the end and they also said they were disappointed with only 6 eggs - I said we were too! DH's sperm analysis from that day was AWFUL! Wasn't going to tell him (he didn't come with me) but he asked and I couldn't lie. His morphology used to be 7%, then after months on supplements it seemed to have improved to 11%, which we were thrilled about, but on EC day it was 1%. I know it changes day by day and it doesn't necessarily mean it's that low all the time, but on the day that mattered... it was

He was a bit gutted but I brushed over it - "it doesn't really matter, ICSI sorts it out anyway, it doesn't matter, they found the good ones, etc...!"
Really upset about the whole thing and having to work really hard to keep DH and I on the same team. It seems very easy this time to turn away from each other, rather than stick together. Not sure why as we became even closer during the bad times on the first 2 attempts. Anyway, I'm sure it's normal, I know most couples find it tough at times.
Work is stressful and busy (but that's how I like it!) and our house buying is not going to plan still, so all in all, pretty heavy going and taking all my energy and focus to get through the days without running off into the distance and leaving it all behind. Sorry to have a downer post, especially as so many of you have exciting times and waits at the moment; Nic, I too am counting down till your scan - so excited!!! Feel like an honorary aunty after our DVD and food sessions! Amy and Gail, hope you both continue to stay strong and try to be positive in your 2 week waits - it's tough, I know.
Hi to everyone else, hope you are all good.
H xx