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Girls, I feel so guilty, and I hope you can understand.........
I'm so thrilled that the results came back negative, and that everything is ok for us to start egg-share ICSI.
But......I am so worried about the egg sharing now. Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled that I'm going to help another couple, but what if, say, I got 20 eggs, and they were split, 10 for me, 10 for my recipetant, and only 12 of them were good quality- and by some fluke, the recipetant got 10 good eggs, and I got 2 good eggs, 8 bad? They split the eggs before testing the quality, that way its 'fair' but its doing my head in!!!
What if I only get 10 eggs, then i have to make a decision to give her all the eggs, and get free IVF for me next time, or take all my eggs myself, letting the other woman down, and having to pay full price for any other IVF I might need.
Its awful, and I'm so stressed. I think I might bring this up at my appointment on Tuesday. I'm so worried at all the uncertainty- worrying about the eggs not fertilising, then not implanting - I think for the first time, its hit me that this is happening, and this is HUGE.
I feel awful for feeling this way. I am early twenties, slim build, healthy, so there is no reason why I shouldnt produce lots of lovely eggs. Right?
So why am I so worried?!!
I know this is a lot of 'what if's' but because my treatment has been held up a lot, I don't think i evere thought I'd actually be doing ICSI!!!
Thanks for letting me vent
Marie xx
I'm so thrilled that the results came back negative, and that everything is ok for us to start egg-share ICSI.
But......I am so worried about the egg sharing now. Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled that I'm going to help another couple, but what if, say, I got 20 eggs, and they were split, 10 for me, 10 for my recipetant, and only 12 of them were good quality- and by some fluke, the recipetant got 10 good eggs, and I got 2 good eggs, 8 bad? They split the eggs before testing the quality, that way its 'fair' but its doing my head in!!!
What if I only get 10 eggs, then i have to make a decision to give her all the eggs, and get free IVF for me next time, or take all my eggs myself, letting the other woman down, and having to pay full price for any other IVF I might need.
Its awful, and I'm so stressed. I think I might bring this up at my appointment on Tuesday. I'm so worried at all the uncertainty- worrying about the eggs not fertilising, then not implanting - I think for the first time, its hit me that this is happening, and this is HUGE.
I feel awful for feeling this way. I am early twenties, slim build, healthy, so there is no reason why I shouldnt produce lots of lovely eggs. Right?
So why am I so worried?!!
I know this is a lot of 'what if's' but because my treatment has been held up a lot, I don't think i evere thought I'd actually be doing ICSI!!!
Thanks for letting me vent
Marie xx