Don't really know what to so apart from I am soo sorry. There is nothing more painful that a negative result. I know this sounds like a cliche but it does get easier with time. (Don't you hate it when people say that). Its true though, but at the moment I think you need big treats, as in loads of chocolate, loads of hugs and kisses, and some time away from the home, go out for a nice meal, or maybe a night away in a posh hotel. It won't stop the hurting but it might help take your mind off it slowly but surely.