I am 2 weeks into our 3rd round of icsi, I had 2bfp on our previous cycles but sadly both ended in miscarriages, the first at our 3 month scan the 2nd after 4 days. I was also very ill in between & was diagnosed with lupus. This time I am having steroids and clexane. I had a good response to the last cycle (produced many eggs) so I'm trying so hard to stay positive for this one working. Although it feels like the odds are stacked against us (my age, lupus, my partners sperm quality) Its a very testing time the treatment rollercoaster has really tested our relationship. I am feeling very up and down at the moment & all the extra hormones are not helping! It's so difficult when I see all my friends conceiving and having normal pregnancies, I don't want to be bitter. Is anyone else feeling like this?