Hi Maude
they don't know it's going to happen but they are hoping for you that it will, as everyone here on FF does. Welcome to the site, it's full of information and support and it literally saved my sanity, I hope it helps you as much.
Take it easy and be kind to yourself. It is easy to feel it runs your life - basically, even if you're trying not to count days in your cycle you do, every time your period's due you're hoping it's not coming, if it's a bit late you're all excited......etc etc. You are talking to the queen of pregnancy tests - all of them done a few days before I was due every month so that when I came on I wouldn't be so devastated.........we have all felt and done things a little crazy here - so don't worry.
If you haven't already you should probably ask your GP if you can start investigations, just in case something is stopping you getting pg or staying pg. Try and get time away with your partner too or take some time out for a nice treat together so you don't feel too much like a baby's the only thing that can make you happy, you have each other too.
Best of luck, and take care,
Claire x