Well done Victoria- so pleased for you!!!
Hi guys,
well yet again the hand of fate and general crappiness has stepped in to blight my pregnancy. I have been listening to check for the baby's heartbeat about twice a week (as it's too soon for me to feel it move yet). Anyway, last checked on Tuesday last week- no probs. Checked on Friday and found that the rhythm was all over the place- irregular and not at all normal. Have worked as a paediatrician with 4 years as a neonatal intensive care registrar so can spot a nasty arrhythmia from 100 yards.
So there I am, in tears in the bathroom.Not knowing what to do and praying that I am mistaken. ha ha ha. No bloody luck. Anyway, managed to get a scan booked at MUMs on saturday am at 0830 which confirmed that I was right and that the fetal heart is not doing what it's meant to do at all. On the plus side the heart looks structurallynormal, and the baby (very clearly a boy - legs in the air, tackle dangling.....) was completely normal otherwise. Just seems that the conduction pathways in the heart haven't formed normally - perhaps....or could it be an immune problem.
Rushed home - emailed Alan beer for advice. This was at 11 am UK time. Sent DH striaght off to Nottingham to get some IVIG - ''if it's immune, this is all we can do to help'' being our thought process at that point. Off he goes - on the 5 hour round trip....whilst being devastated and feeling deperate.
By 12.45 DB had replied- that was at 5.21 am according to the time on the email. God bless people who don't need any sleep! He confirmed it 'could' be immune and said 'get some IVIG on board'. Nothing else to add though, except a list of extra tests to get done.
Managed to get the obstetric registrar at Gloucester to put a cannula in for me and to take the blood tests.....thank God for being a local Dr and being able to ask a special favour.
Then spent 6 hours having ivig on saturday night. I reacted badly to it this time - I guess because I am no longer on steroids. It was grim. But hey ho. Anyway we hoped for a miraculous cure and a normal heart beat when we checked yesterday. No, worse than before. Now we are really terrified.
I have tried to work out what the cause can be (medically) so I can understand what it means for the baby - will he die suddenly and without warning? Possibly. Will he be fine - unlikely but possible. Will he go into heart failure and be a sick fetus....probably. Then he might die as a result of that.
It has been a desperate weeked and we have cried ourselves to death. We feel like we've been mugged in an alley - we weren't expecting anything like this. Does anyone ever? No. But we had been primed to worry about so much other stuff, but not heart problems. And certainly not heart problems that can't be diagnosed and that almost certainly can't be treated at this stage.
It feels to us like we are so much further along than 17 weeks - but to normal doctors etc it's just too soon to be able to do anything in terms of treatment/ diagnosis. Poor little boy is totally helpless and so are we.
Anyway- a cheery start for Monday morning. Sorry but needed to get it off my chest a bit. We are waiting to hear whether we can get an appointment with a paediatric cardiologist to find out more. I'll keep you posted.
Sorry for gloom-fest. It has been the worst weekend of our lives. So utterly helpless to save his little life.
Love
Kate