Sorry everyone but i need to get this off my chest;
I'm so fed up,angry,bitter,sad& tired of all this.

I have been for my blood test results today to check my ovary reserve & it has come back as me having a low reserve and i'm only just gone 36 aaah!!!
My clinic are prepared to go ahead with my ivf but chances of success are only about 15% using my own eggs. The chances are that i wont respond to the drugs.
I'm "lucky" that i have got funding for this cycle,my first, but i feel so low now & fear that we will never get our baby-something that i have never accepted before today but reality is hitting home really hard now.
I cant stop crying(nothing new) but i'm so scared of what the next few months will bring-this hole if thing is PANTS
Trying to look on the bright side i can use donor eggs if this cycle doesn't work but i feel such a failure-why can't my body work properly
??
Sorry ladies letting my emotions run away with me is quite alien to me but it seems so easy on this site as you all know how i feel & i dont have to face you in the morning when i'll probably feel so silly.
I just need to do this;
"aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh"
Thats better.
I find writing things down really helps-so thanks for "listening"
luv juel xx
I'm so fed up,angry,bitter,sad& tired of all this.

I have been for my blood test results today to check my ovary reserve & it has come back as me having a low reserve and i'm only just gone 36 aaah!!!

My clinic are prepared to go ahead with my ivf but chances of success are only about 15% using my own eggs. The chances are that i wont respond to the drugs.
I'm "lucky" that i have got funding for this cycle,my first, but i feel so low now & fear that we will never get our baby-something that i have never accepted before today but reality is hitting home really hard now.
I cant stop crying(nothing new) but i'm so scared of what the next few months will bring-this hole if thing is PANTS
Trying to look on the bright side i can use donor eggs if this cycle doesn't work but i feel such a failure-why can't my body work properly

Sorry ladies letting my emotions run away with me is quite alien to me but it seems so easy on this site as you all know how i feel & i dont have to face you in the morning when i'll probably feel so silly.
I just need to do this;
"aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh"
Thats better.
I find writing things down really helps-so thanks for "listening"
luv juel xx