Hi all 
So iam getting more and more upset every month and iam so scared this is it!! The end!!
I was due to have IVF with my ex husband but found out the day before that he had been cheating on me for most of our marriage. Needless to say I upped and left and didn't turn back. I had been given metformin previous to the IVF to see if that helped and when it didn't they pushed straight for IVF.
Now I have a new partner and he already has a child that now lives with us permanently (long story) I love and adore the little monkey but as harsh as it is to say he isn't mine and all ive ever wanted is a baby!!
So we have been trying for a few years and nothing, not that I was surprised, I have PCOS and was told at 21 that there's slim to no chance I'll ever conceive naturally, anyway I had to go through the motions again and have all the tests redone and my OH had tests to. My doctor is referring me to the fertility clinic but isn't sure if there's much they can do as we can't have IVF on the NHS as my OH already has a child so we don't fit into the criteria, we can't afford IVF or a surrogate and I have regular periods for about a year now. I also had a ovulation bleed (scared the crap out of me went to the doc and he said it all timed rite so was an ovulation bleed) so there isn't much hope of clomid or any other drug either apparently. We can't adopt because we only have a two bed flat atm (looking into somewhere bigger) and again we do not our councils criteria because of what our little Monkey has been through and his emotional needs, he is classed as having an SEN need as he needed counselling and extra help at school because of what he had been through in the past before he came to live with us. Iam desperate for a baby and time is running out for me, iam getting near to my biological end, little Monkey is desperate for a sibling and my OH wants it as much as I do.
What can i do? How do i move forward? Do I have to deal with the fact I will never truly be a mummy and get over myself and move on or is there another option out there for me?
Thanks for taking the time read this.

So iam getting more and more upset every month and iam so scared this is it!! The end!!
I was due to have IVF with my ex husband but found out the day before that he had been cheating on me for most of our marriage. Needless to say I upped and left and didn't turn back. I had been given metformin previous to the IVF to see if that helped and when it didn't they pushed straight for IVF.
Now I have a new partner and he already has a child that now lives with us permanently (long story) I love and adore the little monkey but as harsh as it is to say he isn't mine and all ive ever wanted is a baby!!
So we have been trying for a few years and nothing, not that I was surprised, I have PCOS and was told at 21 that there's slim to no chance I'll ever conceive naturally, anyway I had to go through the motions again and have all the tests redone and my OH had tests to. My doctor is referring me to the fertility clinic but isn't sure if there's much they can do as we can't have IVF on the NHS as my OH already has a child so we don't fit into the criteria, we can't afford IVF or a surrogate and I have regular periods for about a year now. I also had a ovulation bleed (scared the crap out of me went to the doc and he said it all timed rite so was an ovulation bleed) so there isn't much hope of clomid or any other drug either apparently. We can't adopt because we only have a two bed flat atm (looking into somewhere bigger) and again we do not our councils criteria because of what our little Monkey has been through and his emotional needs, he is classed as having an SEN need as he needed counselling and extra help at school because of what he had been through in the past before he came to live with us. Iam desperate for a baby and time is running out for me, iam getting near to my biological end, little Monkey is desperate for a sibling and my OH wants it as much as I do.
What can i do? How do i move forward? Do I have to deal with the fact I will never truly be a mummy and get over myself and move on or is there another option out there for me?
Thanks for taking the time read this.
