So news received last night all 4 were abnormal from 1st cycle at Lister. Prior to that from 3 cycles at Create tested 7 at end and only 1 normal.
Protocol was changed to long this time, more eggs, more fertilisation, more blastocysts frozen with top grading yet all were abnormal.
I just don’t get it. Tried hard not to break down on phone with embrology guy but then just broke. Think he felt so bad he must have told James as next I got email from James within the hour of phone call.
I sat at work end of day when got call and cried on own. Then sat in car cried had panic attack and then just cried for ages as whilst messaged hubby result did not want to go home.
The lab is going to see if offsite genetics lab can see anything in all my pgs results from both clinics. I know when I emailed my Create pgs results to clinic in USA they could see no correlation and just unlucky.
Likely now to do all genetic bloodbtests kyrotype ones to see if something in me or my hubby. Lab said there is possibility that I have “balanced translocation” whatever that means and least if they rule that out for me and hubby then either that or just unlucky. Either way if do have in dna then cannot change that just means going to take lot more ivf cycles to get normal ones and always the risk that even normal one will miscarry if issue with my dna. Also said if clinic and we focus on that first before next ivf cycles least we know one way or other.
I thought my journey was hard when nhs ruined my life when they removed my miscarried baby in 2013 which was one and only one I conceived naturally and they basically scarred my uterus so much I can no longer conceive naturally as dr admitted using a knife to scrape my uterus. Despite 5 surgeries here and abroad have been told there is always change I will have to have gestational surrogate. Even tried to use surrogate in India in 2014 and 2 failed transfer but dr there said my lining was not as bad so changed dr in London who also recommended scarring specialist in LA went there twice and he said to focus on banking normal blastocysts at least 4 before deciding about transfer to my uterus or surrogate again.
So this time at Lister first time on 4 and half year journey get some good news, AMH doubles, long protocol worked with more eggs, better fertilisation, better quality blastocysts frozen and for once my crap uterus lining was actually looking slightly better. Then just get news last night and think when you think there is no much lower you can feel then you find it.
My heart broke on the phone that lab guy had to repeat the result as could not take in. Was so hoping for 1 normal.
I just don’t know what to do anymore x