Hiya mums,
Not been around since Friday and reading back there was is much to catch up on but hopefully you'll frgive me if I don't comment.
We ended up in hospital with Jessica in the early hours of Sunday morning. I woke up after hearing her let out a shout only to find her fitting. I was mortified (as was Jay). I thought she had a seizure about 2 weeks ago but it only seemed to last a few seconds and Jay said it was proberbly just a nightmare. My mum said the next day that it might have been caused by her first lot of injections. Anyway, by the time morning came, I was questioning what I actually saw and convinced myself I was just being paranoid based on my own illness.
On Sunday when she shouted out it was exactly the same, her back was arched and her head was back - clonic phase - although she never actually went into the tonic, jerking phase. She was foaming at the mouth and grunting but kept letting out these little cries. It was if she was saying 'I don't understand what's happening, I'm frightened, make it stop'. Her eyes were open and seemed to be looking around and at us for help.
After about 4 minutes she went limp and spent the next 15 minutes just drooling and staring into space before eventually coming around and crying. Jay had phoned NHS direct who rang an ambulance. The A&E staff were great and transferred us to the local Childrens hospital.
They wont give me any straight answers as to whether it could be epilepsy. She wasn't running a temp and didn't have any infections. All her bloods and urine tests came back normal. They have said if she has another one they will do an EEG but in the meantime, we'll just get an out patients appointment.
I have never been so scared in all my life.

I was just distraught, looking at her crying and telling her how sorry I am to have given her epilepsy. I feel a tiny bit more convinced now that there could be another explanation but still feel increadibly guilty.
The SHO who admitted us at the hospital said that anything as simple as trying to poo can set them off. Jessica is a very windy baby and does spend alot of time wriggling and griping. I'm taking her to the Docs tomorrow as she has had Infacol for about a month and Clolief for a few days (and the problem seems to have got worse since the switch). I know colic is supposed to disappear around the 3 month mark, which she now is, but I'm wondering if the comment that was made at her 34 week scan about her abdomen being oversized has anything to do with the pain. If there is the slightest possibility that it could be setting her off, I want it sorted out.
I feel a little better today but completely washed out. They kept us in hospital overnight on Monday and I just could not sleep. I was watching her every move and stressing. Last night back home was the same. The only thing I can say is that the 2 days leading up to it, she had been feeding really fussily, crying to be fed but the spitting it out after 10 minutes. Hopefully that means she was thirsty because she wasn't well.
Jay is with her at the moment. I know I need to get a grip and feel okay about using the baby monitor in the day so I can get on with things but I can't. Every time I think of it I feel helpless and guilty.
Sorry this is so graphic. I know I don't need to go into detail for you all to understand but I just needed to post. Jay has been great and made me laugh a lot yesterday which I really needed.
Treacle is more or less herself today after being out of sorts on Monday (more about the change of environment I think). I took her to Mothercare and Babies-r-us today and spoilt her silly.
Love Angexxxxxxx