Just wondered if I can join u, i'm feeling quite nervous today as i've got to go and c my consultant in the morning. I know what he's gonna tell me but that doesn't make it any better does it. I've got a large cyst on my left ovary, I had to have a scan about 4 weeks ago because he thought it may have been from having icsi. The scan showed that the cyst hadn't shrunk and that I would have to have it removed, unfortunately though they found a number of other cysts both on my left & right ovaries. The operation itself doesn't bother me, i'm just worried in case he tells me something I don't really want to hear. Anyway, thanx 4 letting me offload all that, I feel a bit better now. Will let u know the outcome.
Sorry I haven't been posting, I had a wonderful holiday, got back last Thursday night, manic weekend, including unpacking and re-packing to then to come up to Glasgow for a week for work! I like it though - lovely place - good pubs - ei Elaine (Woppa)!! I literally have a couple of mins on the site and then I have to go, probably won't be able to get on properly until the weekend again!! And I think it will take me most of the weekend to catch up.
Those that are going to Stratford have a lovely time. I have an update to post (too long to do now) as I saw my Consultant last week and it looks like I will be on this thread for a while. Not a problem though, hopefully positive news.
Kezza welcome to the in-betweenies, hope you got on OK today.
I will try and pop in for a couple of mins a day, it just isn't easy from this site and the hotel is about 50p a minute!!
Welcome to the inbetweenies Kezza, don't worry about offloading I'm just about to do the same!
aaaaaaaarrrrrrrggggghhhhhh!!!!!!! I'm still waiting for AF to arrive, I'm never late always every 28 days, now got to day 33 and feeling really pi**ed off ^furious^. Pregnancy test neg (didn't really think it would be anything else) and now I'm waiting, I'm more fustrated as it's holding up my next tx, hospital said wait another week then contact them again - it feels like the 2ww all over again. - MOAN FINISHED & it's raining here!
Dee - I hope your review went OK today at work. Thinking about you.
Mel H - Glad you had a good holiday and will catch up with you soon.
First things first (get it out of the way with) ... thanks loads and loads for your messages of support re work issues. SueL, special thanks to you ... I stayed focused - ain't no mountain high enough to beat me!
Don't want to go into all the details on here but basically my job is still my job ... so I'm trying to just look forward from here on in. Once again, thanks loads girls - you are brilliant! xx
SueL - Everyone has said it know I think ... but I too would have said talk to your friend - you never know?!? And the NK cell test ... not brilliant news but with fingers crossed your "reason" has now been found and next time round you are going to get your BFP! I certainly hope so and you definately deserve to.
Jo - Wow, a helicopter ride - I would like to do that one but it would have to be on my own ... there is no way I would get DH in one - I'm surprised I don't have to knock him out to get on the plane when we go on hols .. he hates flying! Pleased you had a great day!
Paula - I know, only too well, that "roll on pay day feeling" ... only thing is it starts about a week into the month ... why is there too much month at both before and after pay day?? Wouldn't it be "lush" (scouse enough?) not to have to worry about pay day?
Oh and pleased DH is in a better mood and your report from Peter was "interesting".
Lilly - Sending you a big hug. xxx
Dolly - Strange thing to say on this website but I hope af shows up soon. xx
Juel - Sorry I missed saying Happy Anniversary to you and Dave. Hope you had a great day!
MelH - Pleased you had a good holiday. Bet you're delighted to be back at work, not.
Kez - Welcome to the mood swinging inbetweenies. Hope you're review goes well.
To everyone else chilling out round here or just popping in to keep us sane ... hope you are all happy and well.
Loads of Love
PS Know how much chatting to you lot means to me?!?!?! Just panicked cause you made me forget about the pan of bolognaise simmering away ... have swapped the pan and if I clean the burnt bits off the bottom of the original pan before DH comes home he will never know! AND that's me trying to be organised and prepare tomorrow nights tea! xxx
I have decided to come back and start to 'socialise' with you all again. Just been having a s t time of it the last few weeks.
The RHS Gardening course that I started a couple of months ago is really good. I got my first assignment back and the marks were really encouraging. I sent the 2nd one in today albeit it is late.
My two fur baby kittens (Tia & Tadi) are really funny with the rain. They are nearly one now but are just not used to going out for a wee wee in it. I am hoping they will as there could be an accident in my house no doubt.
Hope everyone is o.k. Will read through and catch up with all your news.
Thought I would join this thread as after initial introductions, I am not quite sure where I belong.... not started any treatment yet so not really an inbetweenie.....
Hope you're all well...
Anyway, I'm on hols from work this week, but just to finsh some darned academic qualification that I started nearly 5 years ago!!! Not in the least bit interested in it, but another 6000 ish words to finds from somewhere. Sitting at the pc all day means I've been dipping in and out of FF and really getting to find my way around.
Went to see my GP yesterday. Have follow up with NHS consultant in Aug after HSG - (all oK), so I know the what next question will be raised.... and I want to be ready for it. Basically my GP says that there is no provision for any ART in my area on the NHS. End of story. I guess its the same all over, but its nice to know that if you need 3 tries at something for it to work at least one, one day might be NHS funded.....
Feeling a bit down after this...I asked all the normal questions about self funding etc but no proper answers - I am not sure he really knew?
Waiting is so frustrating when absolutely nowt is happening... not even any treatments.... not sure how I fancy that prospect for the next 10 years...
I am so sorry that I have not been on here a lot over the last four weeks since my neg result. I just dont know if I am coming or going at the moment.
I had my review (Mr Abdalla) last week. He was pleased with my cycle, sadly not pg. But has told me to go straight ahead with my frostie this cycle (now day2 of period).
He wants to test for natural killer cells and something or other antibodies when I do the frostie cycle. Anyone any ideas (due to a rushed consultation there were questions I forgot to ask) as to what these are.
I know he mentioned, asprin, heparin,steriods if I have a pos on the results but will have to ring clinic and speak to someone.
I am not sure if to do it this cycle as result will be when I am on holiday and do not think that it would be wise when I am away with friends.
He has also advised us if the frostie doesnt work, to carry on if poss as he feels we have a good chance. He cannot see why we should stop and consider donoring (was advised this by old consultant).
I feel positive but also very scared to do frostie. I must find out more about Nkcells and antibodies first.
I hope everyone is fine, so much has happened since I have been on here. If anyone there (who I have spoken to ) wants to IM me to let me know how they are doing I would be grateful.
Sorry to hear some of you are having tough times this whole IF thing is such a nightmare...big hugs to you all.
Well our anniversary was a good one until we went for a meal in the evening ...i had a couple of glasses of the white stuff & started rambling about IF, i get frustrated as i seem to make all of the desisions & never really know how dave feels,i feel that he just follows me if you know what i mean I WISH HE WOULD JUST SAY " I WANT TO DO.... "THIS" but he never does,he just seems to leave it all to me & i'm *ackered by it all but i think last night i should have kept my mouth shut but that's booze for you ...anyway we seemed to spend the whole meal having a heated debate...13yrs unlucky for some ,it was for us as we very rarely argue...trust me
We're ok again now...well we were before we left the indian,we don't fall out for long so i had to AGAIN.....Jo you jinxed me
Kim....i said that i got out of the way as we've done it so much to order over the last few years that it's taking a while to get used to doing it for fun ... i'm used to planning what i don't want to miss on telly 1st ...i'd be interested to know what all your dirty minds were thinking though
Sorry Jo...it wasn't you that jinxed me,you sympathised with me ...it was that SueL that jinxed me ... Suuuuue i had to AGAIN to make up!! ...& i was going to buy you a drink on Sat !!! .....& no OPT i sight ....i nearly missed Jim Carey on the Ruby Wax show ,if i'd have watched him 1st at least i'd have had some inspiration ...i think he's gorg
thanks so much for all your kind words it helps alot you are all so great ^group^ ^group^ to you all. im feeling alittle better know justin took me away for a few days which helped so im just trying to think for my fet in november will talk to the doctor 2nd september and see when i can do it im saving every penny and please god next time we will all get there thanks again you are all angels god bless you all
lots of love lilly xxxxxx
Feeling quite s*it at the moment, went to c my consultant this morning and he diagnosed me with chronic pelvic inflammatory disease which is just a posh name for all the adhesions i've got. He asked me when I was going to have another go at ivf, I told him that we had knocked it on the head for a couple of years seeing as i'm only 26. He told me that because of the way my insides are and that all my womb and tubes are stuck to almost everything else in that area that it would be advisable to abandon all plans of trying to get pg
Although dh and myself had already told ourselves that deep down we thought it wasn't gonna happen, it still hits u quite hard.
Although deep down I probably would want to get a second opinion, at the same time I don't want to be knocked down again. Also he's not the only one to tell me this!
I think its just best to finally come to terms with the fact that we're not going to have children of our own, that way, at least we can try and get on with our lives the best we can. Its gonna be hard though!!
Kez.....so so sorry to read your post...i was wondering as i hadn't heard from you ,& i know that this is what you were dreading to ear,please please call me if you want a shoulder,no stiff upper lip etc,i'm here if you need me. I wont ring at the mo. i'll give you some space but you know where i am if you need me ^group^ ^group^ ^group^
Just trying to catchup - it has been nearly a week since I could log on, so please forgive me if I haven't responded to some of the posts - I do think of everyone and read, but just can't keep up with the posting at the mo.
We've had a really s**t week too. DH has been short-staffed as the exec under him left, and a computer made an error on a print run calculation (magazine subscriptions) and as a result they had to do a reprint!.. Well - as a result they are trying to give him a written warning and demote him! I can't believe it. He has worked for the same company really well for 17 years and brought over 1 million in to the company last year . I don't think it can be legal - but! We are shattered. In the meeting Richard explained that at the time he had been short staffed, and then he also said that we had been undergonig IVF and were incredibly stressed. We've told no-one expect you guys - so I feel funny about that too - but mostly I just want to go and punch these ungrateful bods. He knows he mucked up - but the punishment seems really severe. So it's been really miserable for him. I just feel so protective of him. He is the most tolerant bloke who would always encourage staff so it is all the more galling.
Sorry to offload this on you all - but I'm boiling mad and feel threatened all at the same time - and I don't like them knowing about IVF either. Ahh well.